Playlists!!!!!! Wow...I think it has been way too long since I have updated! So now that I am finally back in to blogging I realized that my countdown to my birthday was already up! Because since I have last posted I have turned 21!!! Isn't that exciting? So I decided that I needed to replace the countdown with some music! I added lots of my favorite songs! I just love them!! So listen and enjoy!
Anyway...I am on my way to take a Calculus 2 Test! Wish me luck!! I will post some pictures of my birthday and just some random ones later today! I have to go get an A on my Calc 2 test right now!
Love you all! Here is my thought for this morning!
-Click on this link...you will understand my thought process-
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Saturday, September 13, 2008
O is for...
OOOWWWW!!!!!
So I started physical therapy on Tuesday this week and lets just say it hurts! Wow...I can't believe the pain i'm going through! Thank goodness I am off my crutches though and just have to sport around this ginormous boot! It's not too attractive but I'll live right!?? lol! Hopefully I will be out of it soon! It just depends on how long it takes for the incision to heal! Can you believe its not healed yet? Well...most of it is but there is a tiny part at the top that isn't! So my word for O is OOWWW!!! lol! Because my life is surrounded by physical pain! haha!
Oh another thing I wanted to mention was that we have had like some crazy rain recently! For those of you that have been to my house..these are pictures from my backyard last night! It was crazy! The waterfall that is usually like a little trickle of water is basically overflowing like a real huge waterfall! It's so cool! And in the pictures if you look across the water where there is a little patch of grass....ALL of that is my neighbors yard...it is totally
Anyway...so that's my yard! It's crazy! And where all the water is...there is usually a retaining wall there that if you step off of it there is 3 feet to the water below! Look in the pictures...theres no retaining wall!
Well...thats about it! I'm out to go to the benefit garage sale at my church so hope you all have a great day!
"The art of government is to make two-thirds of a nation pay all it possibly can pay for the benefit of the third."
So I started physical therapy on Tuesday this week and lets just say it hurts! Wow...I can't believe the pain i'm going through! Thank goodness I am off my crutches though and just have to sport around this ginormous boot! It's not too attractive but I'll live right!?? lol! Hopefully I will be out of it soon! It just depends on how long it takes for the incision to heal! Can you believe its not healed yet? Well...most of it is but there is a tiny part at the top that isn't! So my word for O is OOWWW!!! lol! Because my life is surrounded by physical pain! haha!
Oh another thing I wanted to mention was that we have had like some crazy rain recently! For those of you that have been to my house..these are pictures from my backyard last night! It was crazy! The waterfall that is usually like a little trickle of water is basically overflowing like a real huge waterfall! It's so cool! And in the pictures if you look across the water where there is a little patch of grass....ALL of that is my neighbors yard...it is totally
Anyway...so that's my yard! It's crazy! And where all the water is...there is usually a retaining wall there that if you step off of it there is 3 feet to the water below! Look in the pictures...theres no retaining wall!Well...thats about it! I'm out to go to the benefit garage sale at my church so hope you all have a great day!
"The art of government is to make two-thirds of a nation pay all it possibly can pay for the benefit of the third."
Saturday, September 6, 2008
N is for...
Numbness...
Using the word numbness comes with two examples that are both currently happening to me.
For starters...I'm sorry fellow readers for not updating for such a long time. I have been going through some tough times with having surgery, starting school, repairing such things in my life such as my heart, and honestly just trying to cope with what God has given me.
This morning when I woke up I felt like I was still playing a little Texas Hold-Em Poker. In my hand I had 2 10s. On the flop there was a Jack, a 10, and a 7, all in clubs. The turn was a Jack of hearts and the river was a 4 of clubs. So showing I had a full house 10s over Jacks. What to do? Of course you are going to bid them high! I definitely think that I have a good hand! I mean in Texas Hold-em that's a really good hand.
In my real life...I woke up realizing that for the last year I had been in love with a certain ex someone and had deeply cared for him for the previous 5 years before that. So just like in the poker hand I had a 50/50 chance. He loves me compassionately in return or his heart had moved on to better things. And in poker there is a chance that someone had a Jack and a 7 and their hand would win over mine. Or even having the final 10 with a Jack. So what did I do in the poker hand? Bid em high! I was definitely going with my gut feeling. So in real life...I bid em high! I went to this certain ex and told him everything that was on my heart. I told him that I was madly in love with him.
Someone once told me that Short term pain results in Long term pleasure. Thats what I thought my life had come to. The short term pain was over. The previous year was painful...and short term.
In the poker hand, I won! Nobody else had anything close to what i had. I was so psyched! For such a great winning I definitely decided that the love that I had for my ex was worth the risk! The risk of our actual friendship that we had made not lasting through something like this. I went all-in! The fact of the matter was that my poker hand and my love life don't always match. I lost in real life. Thank goodness my poker hand was good...but that joy only lasts until the weekend is over and your bragging rights expire. My heart on the other hand...was numb. I couldn't feel it and still can't. On facebook...my status is that i want to feel "it" again. I want to feel my heart again. I want to know that it is still there so I can give it to the man of my future dreams. Because the man of my current dreams obviously doesn't want it. So numbness part #1...the place where my heart used to be...its numb. Just as if it were never there.
Numbness part #2...my foot! My right foot is huge! It's swollen and most of it is numb. I can't feel it. During surgery the doctor found a torn tendon at the same time which when fixing that it hit a nerve. Which implied numbness. My foot will eventually get back to normal. But as of now..its nowhere close. Thank goodness that Physical Therapy starts on Tuesday and that will hopefully heal some of the numbness.
Does anyone know a good Physical Therapist that can heal my numb heart? I got one for my foot...now if only I had another one that could heal my heart. One day I will find one. And he will be the best. And if I can be honest about this certain Physical Therapist...he will be my husband. Because to fix all the brokenness and numbness in my life is going to take a miracle and thats exactly what my husband will be one day. He will be the miracle that I wait for every day. The miracle that will exceed anything else I have ever seen, yes even One Tree Hill. :)
Enough venting for one day...I will attempt to make my updates more frequent now that I am attempting to deal with my life and not search for the Physical Therapist in the yellow pages but look deeper. Look into my faith and trust in God that he will send me someone that will go above and beyond any Physical Therapist and just be the closest person to perfect as there can ever be. At least perfect to me...
My final thought...There are some people that I miss more than others but will never admit it. And those few are very special to my heart. The moment that they walked out of my life broke everything I had ever built. I have rebuilt my heart, my life, and my faith numerous times. Maybe this time...it won't get knocked down and I won't have to miss anyone anymore and I will finally be happy.
It will come to me one day...I have faith in God that it will.
"All I ever wanted for you to know was that
Everything I'd do,
I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe
I need to feel you here with me"
-'When You're Gone'
So far I have yet to get an actual comment..so don't start now. I don't want to know your opinion on this post...its too heartfelt and anything you say will make it worse. Trust me.
Using the word numbness comes with two examples that are both currently happening to me.
For starters...I'm sorry fellow readers for not updating for such a long time. I have been going through some tough times with having surgery, starting school, repairing such things in my life such as my heart, and honestly just trying to cope with what God has given me.
This morning when I woke up I felt like I was still playing a little Texas Hold-Em Poker. In my hand I had 2 10s. On the flop there was a Jack, a 10, and a 7, all in clubs. The turn was a Jack of hearts and the river was a 4 of clubs. So showing I had a full house 10s over Jacks. What to do? Of course you are going to bid them high! I definitely think that I have a good hand! I mean in Texas Hold-em that's a really good hand.
In my real life...I woke up realizing that for the last year I had been in love with a certain ex someone and had deeply cared for him for the previous 5 years before that. So just like in the poker hand I had a 50/50 chance. He loves me compassionately in return or his heart had moved on to better things. And in poker there is a chance that someone had a Jack and a 7 and their hand would win over mine. Or even having the final 10 with a Jack. So what did I do in the poker hand? Bid em high! I was definitely going with my gut feeling. So in real life...I bid em high! I went to this certain ex and told him everything that was on my heart. I told him that I was madly in love with him.
Someone once told me that Short term pain results in Long term pleasure. Thats what I thought my life had come to. The short term pain was over. The previous year was painful...and short term.
In the poker hand, I won! Nobody else had anything close to what i had. I was so psyched! For such a great winning I definitely decided that the love that I had for my ex was worth the risk! The risk of our actual friendship that we had made not lasting through something like this. I went all-in! The fact of the matter was that my poker hand and my love life don't always match. I lost in real life. Thank goodness my poker hand was good...but that joy only lasts until the weekend is over and your bragging rights expire. My heart on the other hand...was numb. I couldn't feel it and still can't. On facebook...my status is that i want to feel "it" again. I want to feel my heart again. I want to know that it is still there so I can give it to the man of my future dreams. Because the man of my current dreams obviously doesn't want it. So numbness part #1...the place where my heart used to be...its numb. Just as if it were never there.
Numbness part #2...my foot! My right foot is huge! It's swollen and most of it is numb. I can't feel it. During surgery the doctor found a torn tendon at the same time which when fixing that it hit a nerve. Which implied numbness. My foot will eventually get back to normal. But as of now..its nowhere close. Thank goodness that Physical Therapy starts on Tuesday and that will hopefully heal some of the numbness.
Does anyone know a good Physical Therapist that can heal my numb heart? I got one for my foot...now if only I had another one that could heal my heart. One day I will find one. And he will be the best. And if I can be honest about this certain Physical Therapist...he will be my husband. Because to fix all the brokenness and numbness in my life is going to take a miracle and thats exactly what my husband will be one day. He will be the miracle that I wait for every day. The miracle that will exceed anything else I have ever seen, yes even One Tree Hill. :)
Enough venting for one day...I will attempt to make my updates more frequent now that I am attempting to deal with my life and not search for the Physical Therapist in the yellow pages but look deeper. Look into my faith and trust in God that he will send me someone that will go above and beyond any Physical Therapist and just be the closest person to perfect as there can ever be. At least perfect to me...
My final thought...There are some people that I miss more than others but will never admit it. And those few are very special to my heart. The moment that they walked out of my life broke everything I had ever built. I have rebuilt my heart, my life, and my faith numerous times. Maybe this time...it won't get knocked down and I won't have to miss anyone anymore and I will finally be happy.
It will come to me one day...I have faith in God that it will.
"All I ever wanted for you to know was that
Everything I'd do,
I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe
I need to feel you here with me"
-'When You're Gone'
So far I have yet to get an actual comment..so don't start now. I don't want to know your opinion on this post...its too heartfelt and anything you say will make it worse. Trust me.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
M is for....
Minor sugery!
Yep you read it right...I'm having minor foot surgery. It turns out that I have a fractured bone in my big toe of my right foot. My second Podiatrist found it so we are having him surgically remove that fractured bone. He said that it is not a necessary bone to have to do all the normal daily activities. Now if I ever consider to be a ballerina then those dreams would probably not come true since removing this bone will take away some of the precise foot movements that a ballerina must master. But since I am not considering to be a dancer in my future...I'm sure I will be ok.
My surgery is schedule for Tuesday, August 19th at 7:30 in the morning. The doctor said that I should be out of the hospital by 12,noon that day depending on how long it takes me to come out of the anesthesia. All of your prayers will be greatly appreciated. After the surgery I will post pictures of my cool scars! I'm sure it will be very small but still it will be a good story to tell my children right? I have learned that I have to be optimistic in cases like this or else I will never make it through.
There is one bad thing about this surgery which is the fact that I must be on crutches for the first week or so of school. My classes start 2 days after my surgery. Fortunately my father made a great point the other day regarding me having to use crutches. He said, "See Myra these crutches could be a great thing, When you are struggling with your books and crutches at the same time; then some cute boy will come up and help you." It made me laugh. My dad is hilarious sometimes! I loved it! I was thinking...I think the purpose of this surgery was for me to find my husband...its inevitable! haha!
Well with surgery next Tuesday and classes starting the following Thursday I think I'm going to be pretty busy with everything. I will attempt to update my blog pretty frequently. I just hope school doesn't take up TOO much of my time! Prayers are always appreciated!
Hope you all have a great day! i'm off to the annual Cracker Barrel Picnic on my lunch break! Yes even though it has been about a year and a half since I worked there...they still love me and want me to come! YAY!!! i'll leave you with this quote for my final thought! I love you all!
"Life is the art of drawing without an eraser."
-John W. Gardner
Yep you read it right...I'm having minor foot surgery. It turns out that I have a fractured bone in my big toe of my right foot. My second Podiatrist found it so we are having him surgically remove that fractured bone. He said that it is not a necessary bone to have to do all the normal daily activities. Now if I ever consider to be a ballerina then those dreams would probably not come true since removing this bone will take away some of the precise foot movements that a ballerina must master. But since I am not considering to be a dancer in my future...I'm sure I will be ok.
My surgery is schedule for Tuesday, August 19th at 7:30 in the morning. The doctor said that I should be out of the hospital by 12,noon that day depending on how long it takes me to come out of the anesthesia. All of your prayers will be greatly appreciated. After the surgery I will post pictures of my cool scars! I'm sure it will be very small but still it will be a good story to tell my children right? I have learned that I have to be optimistic in cases like this or else I will never make it through.
There is one bad thing about this surgery which is the fact that I must be on crutches for the first week or so of school. My classes start 2 days after my surgery. Fortunately my father made a great point the other day regarding me having to use crutches. He said, "See Myra these crutches could be a great thing, When you are struggling with your books and crutches at the same time; then some cute boy will come up and help you." It made me laugh. My dad is hilarious sometimes! I loved it! I was thinking...I think the purpose of this surgery was for me to find my husband...its inevitable! haha!
Well with surgery next Tuesday and classes starting the following Thursday I think I'm going to be pretty busy with everything. I will attempt to update my blog pretty frequently. I just hope school doesn't take up TOO much of my time! Prayers are always appreciated!
Hope you all have a great day! i'm off to the annual Cracker Barrel Picnic on my lunch break! Yes even though it has been about a year and a half since I worked there...they still love me and want me to come! YAY!!! i'll leave you with this quote for my final thought! I love you all!
"Life is the art of drawing without an eraser."
-John W. Gardner
Monday, August 4, 2008
L is for....
The way you LOOK at me
O is for the Only One I See
V is Very Very extroadinary
E is Even More than Anyone That You Adore
And Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart but please don't break it
Love was made for me and you...
So the other day I was wondering if true love was possible and so that was my status on facebook...and the next day I received a message..and this is what it said. The author will remain unknown!
Whether true love is possible is an interesting question.It requires an analysis of the definition "love" and "true" and then proceeds to inquire as to the circumstances in which it occurs. A logical, analytical approach is most preferred.
As per the definition of "love" I will reference the "he agape"--I'm sorry I can't use actual Greek characters. The selfless, giving love which is the ultimate result of a romantic association is possible.
Next, we consider the adjective "true", "aletheis" meaning, true, real, genuine, or honest. The love must be real or it is not love. It must be genuine or it has an alterior motive. Since "love seeks not its own glory" then alterior motives are precluded. It must also be honest for the same reasons. The conclusion then is that the adjective is mere surplusage and verbiage if we accept the proffered definition.
Finally, one consideres the circumstances in which it occurs. Love--omitting the unnecessary adjective--is something that is cultivated and worked for. It takes time and experience for it to be nurtured. It cannot happen by chance. Nor is it consistent with the idea that once two people fall in love that they stay that way forever. Many married couples fall in and out of love--as the term is commonly used--but they have to work for it. That's why arranged marriages aren't as bad an idea as Americans assume.
There are many proofs, examples, arguments, and Scriptural citations which I have used to generate my opinion on the subject, but explaining the intricacies of the analysis would be extremely lengthy, so I have tried to keep it to a very brief summary of a much longer thesis.
So what do you think? For most of you...your married..you think its true..but until the day that I find my one true love...I don't believe you! Hope you all have a splendid day! I will continue my search for true love and one day I'll find it! Don't worry I got people looking for me...hopefully God will RSVP to me one day and let me know who it is! :)
Prayers are always good and I'm very thankful for all of you who do pray for me!
"Love doesn't make the world go round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile."
-Franklin P. Jones
O is for the Only One I See
V is Very Very extroadinary
E is Even More than Anyone That You Adore
And Love is all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart but please don't break it
Love was made for me and you...
So the other day I was wondering if true love was possible and so that was my status on facebook...and the next day I received a message..and this is what it said. The author will remain unknown!
Whether true love is possible is an interesting question.It requires an analysis of the definition "love" and "true" and then proceeds to inquire as to the circumstances in which it occurs. A logical, analytical approach is most preferred.
As per the definition of "love" I will reference the "he agape"--I'm sorry I can't use actual Greek characters. The selfless, giving love which is the ultimate result of a romantic association is possible.
Next, we consider the adjective "true", "aletheis" meaning, true, real, genuine, or honest. The love must be real or it is not love. It must be genuine or it has an alterior motive. Since "love seeks not its own glory" then alterior motives are precluded. It must also be honest for the same reasons. The conclusion then is that the adjective is mere surplusage and verbiage if we accept the proffered definition.
Finally, one consideres the circumstances in which it occurs. Love--omitting the unnecessary adjective--is something that is cultivated and worked for. It takes time and experience for it to be nurtured. It cannot happen by chance. Nor is it consistent with the idea that once two people fall in love that they stay that way forever. Many married couples fall in and out of love--as the term is commonly used--but they have to work for it. That's why arranged marriages aren't as bad an idea as Americans assume.
There are many proofs, examples, arguments, and Scriptural citations which I have used to generate my opinion on the subject, but explaining the intricacies of the analysis would be extremely lengthy, so I have tried to keep it to a very brief summary of a much longer thesis.
So what do you think? For most of you...your married..you think its true..but until the day that I find my one true love...I don't believe you! Hope you all have a splendid day! I will continue my search for true love and one day I'll find it! Don't worry I got people looking for me...hopefully God will RSVP to me one day and let me know who it is! :)
Prayers are always good and I'm very thankful for all of you who do pray for me!
"Love doesn't make the world go round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile."
-Franklin P. Jones
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
K is for....
Knots...
Lets just say my heart is in knots right now...I met a guy..with a few flaws...he leaves for the MARINES?? Why can't I get away from Military guys!?? I don't understand. Well lets just say the whole boy issue..I don't really know how its going...Complicated..is a great word to describe it. He left Sunday so the complication is really in my head. I just don't know.
Other than that...my life is going pretty good. I am just working and getting ready for school in the fall. I really am excited for school to start because being without a car makes the summer harder to enjoy. At least at school I will be closer to all my friends and actually have things to take up my time. I am taking only 12 hours in the fall because I need to bring my GPA up really bad! But I have ambition now and I'm going to do it! I'm super excited!
My feet problems are getting worse. The doctor that I was going to gave me the orthotics that he made for me and I would try them out for two weeks and then go back in for a check-up. My feet still hurt...we repeated this process 3 or 4 times. Finally on the last time which occurred yesterday he decided that he would send my orthotics without measuring anything or without any markings on the orthotics. I am thinking...how are some random guys going to fix these without knowing what to fix? It was crazy...anyway so mom and I decided that we are going to get a second opinion. I am going to see a different Podiatrist next Thursday...the only bad thing is that I am going to go without any orthotics in my shoes for probably a month which will be painful. I might have to just wear tennis shoes all the time because those didn't hurt AS BAD.
Pray for me everyone! Pray for my man situation...pray for my feet...and just pray for me in general! I need prayers!
I think thats about it for today! I love all of you! Hope you have a fantastic day! Praying has always been something I lack in my life but I'm trying to bring it in to my life! I would really appreciate it if you could help me with that. Thanks everyone!
'There are more tears shed over answered prayers than over unanswered prayers"
-Teresa of Avila
Lets just say my heart is in knots right now...I met a guy..with a few flaws...he leaves for the MARINES?? Why can't I get away from Military guys!?? I don't understand. Well lets just say the whole boy issue..I don't really know how its going...Complicated..is a great word to describe it. He left Sunday so the complication is really in my head. I just don't know.
Other than that...my life is going pretty good. I am just working and getting ready for school in the fall. I really am excited for school to start because being without a car makes the summer harder to enjoy. At least at school I will be closer to all my friends and actually have things to take up my time. I am taking only 12 hours in the fall because I need to bring my GPA up really bad! But I have ambition now and I'm going to do it! I'm super excited!
My feet problems are getting worse. The doctor that I was going to gave me the orthotics that he made for me and I would try them out for two weeks and then go back in for a check-up. My feet still hurt...we repeated this process 3 or 4 times. Finally on the last time which occurred yesterday he decided that he would send my orthotics without measuring anything or without any markings on the orthotics. I am thinking...how are some random guys going to fix these without knowing what to fix? It was crazy...anyway so mom and I decided that we are going to get a second opinion. I am going to see a different Podiatrist next Thursday...the only bad thing is that I am going to go without any orthotics in my shoes for probably a month which will be painful. I might have to just wear tennis shoes all the time because those didn't hurt AS BAD.
Pray for me everyone! Pray for my man situation...pray for my feet...and just pray for me in general! I need prayers!
I think thats about it for today! I love all of you! Hope you have a fantastic day! Praying has always been something I lack in my life but I'm trying to bring it in to my life! I would really appreciate it if you could help me with that. Thanks everyone!
'There are more tears shed over answered prayers than over unanswered prayers"
-Teresa of Avila
Monday, July 21, 2008
J is for....
Just a quick prayer request!
Let's be honest...I cannot think of any word that starts with a J! It was really hard for me to find one so I cheated! Sorry! I wanted to stop by on my wonderful blog and say hi to everyone! And I want to let everyone know that if you have anything that is heavy on your heart or that is just bothering you...then drop me a comment and I will add you to my prayer list. I know that I would thoroughly appreciate it if you would put me on your prayer lists. I recently have met a certain boy and think he's pretty special and I'm pretty worried about how it is going to turn out since he leaves for the Marines this coming Sunday! But I am just requesting prayers so hopefully what is supposed to happen...will happen! As for now he is my boyfriend! And trust me...anything more than that right now is CRAZY TALK! But prayers would be greatly appreciated so the right thing happens since I have such a crazy messed up love life past!
Other than that...not much has been going on! Just working and hanging out! I turned in my macbook last Wednesday...it was sad. I will miss OC but I think it will be better for me to not be there. It might have been a stupid decision but its made now and I am not going to regret it.
Here's my thought for the day in a quote! Enjoy!
"If only we'd stop trying to be happy we'd have a pretty good time."
-Edith Wharton
Let's be honest...I cannot think of any word that starts with a J! It was really hard for me to find one so I cheated! Sorry! I wanted to stop by on my wonderful blog and say hi to everyone! And I want to let everyone know that if you have anything that is heavy on your heart or that is just bothering you...then drop me a comment and I will add you to my prayer list. I know that I would thoroughly appreciate it if you would put me on your prayer lists. I recently have met a certain boy and think he's pretty special and I'm pretty worried about how it is going to turn out since he leaves for the Marines this coming Sunday! But I am just requesting prayers so hopefully what is supposed to happen...will happen! As for now he is my boyfriend! And trust me...anything more than that right now is CRAZY TALK! But prayers would be greatly appreciated so the right thing happens since I have such a crazy messed up love life past!
Other than that...not much has been going on! Just working and hanging out! I turned in my macbook last Wednesday...it was sad. I will miss OC but I think it will be better for me to not be there. It might have been a stupid decision but its made now and I am not going to regret it.
Here's my thought for the day in a quote! Enjoy!
"If only we'd stop trying to be happy we'd have a pretty good time."
-Edith Wharton
Friday, July 11, 2008
I is for...
In loving memory of Kathryn Michelle Kennedy!
1 year ago today at 12 in the morning I was sitting in the Warren East auditorium awaiting for Harry Potter and the Order Of The Pheonix to come on the big screen. I was thrilled! I had waited for days for it to come out and it was the midnight showing. I remember that night like it was yesterday, because little did I know that my best friend in the whole world was going through so much pain at the same time.
My best friend, Katie, was living the college life. She was working at the Air Force Base and just hanging out since it was the summer time. She would stay up late and sleep in! She had just gotten a new dog not too long before this night. She loved Riley very much! A few days before the premier of Harry Potter I had asked Katie if she wanted to go with me. A lot of us were going to dinner and then to see Harry Potter later that night and I wanted to Katie to come along. She had told me that she didn't feel too well and really just wanted to stay at home. So, Katie decided that she would do her laundry that night. Around 1 A.M. on July 11th,2007 she walked downstairs to switch out her laundry when all of a sudden she couldn't catch her breath. She didn't know what was going on. So she walked upstairs and woke up her mom, since her mom was a nurse. Her mom rushed her to the hospital which was only a couple blocks away. Katie walked in and was responding to the doctor very well. The doctor looked at her and checked her vital signs and everything turned out right. So the doctor told her to just lay down on this bed and we will check a few more things so you can get on back to your beauty sleep. Katie laid down...and her heart stopped. It was tragic. They did surgeries after surgeries to try and bring her back. Nothing worked. She was pronounced dead sometime that night, I'm not sure the exact time.
After, I had left the Harry Potter premier I went home and didn't think anything of it. I found my pillow and went off to sleep. I had no idea that such a tragedy was happening at the same time. The next morning I awoke in time to attend my 8 o' clock class. I had a test first thing in Psychology and then after my test we had a break before we came back for a lecture. During the break, I was feeling pretty good until I checked my voicemail. My best friend Chris had called me and left a message, 'Myra, call me it's about Katie' I honestly didn't know what to think. I had no idea anything was going on. I called Chris and when he told me what happened I didn't believe him. I said, 'Stop joking around Chris!' He wasn't. He was really sad.
The funeral was on the 14th of July. It was a very nice service. They had lots of pictures and it was really hard to be there. It really hadn't hit me until I saw the casket. I about died...I was just heartbroken. I couldn't believe that my best friend for so long was gone. Still today, I sometimes feel like she will just come back one day because I don't want it to be real. At her funeral, there was so many people. We all wore pink in remembrance of her! That was her favorite color!
Today, I just want to ask for everyone's prayers for me, Katie's family, and all of Katie's friends. This is a very hard day for me to get through and I know that Katie is up there watching over me right now. So if all of you could just stop...take a minute..and remember my best friend Katie. She will always be with me! I love you Katie and I really miss you!
Thanks for your prayers!
In Loving Memory of Kathryn Michelle 'Katie' Kennedy!
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
H is for...
Heartache...Happy...and Home
First off, H is for Heartache because of some recent events with men in my life. I don't know why I would go down the path of heartache with a certain someone once again in my life but I did...I thought he had changed. He hadn't, but I'm on the right track and at least this time I went down that path it only lasted a week and a half instead of another 2 1/2 years!
Second. H is for Happy! This weekend was one of the greatest weekends of my life! I got to spend every second of it with my adorable nieces! They are so amazing and cute! I swear that Jaylen is started reaching for me one time! I heard her say 'dada' and she just always smiled! I got to hold her in church as well and she just was so cuddly! Aww I love it! And she went in the pool with me as well! She had a cute little floating device! Mel and G called it her 'boat' I thought she just looked so cute in it! And Macy was there too! She was rolling over..spittin up on me..and just looking so adorable! Both of my nieces wore their pisa shirts we got them from Italy one day and they were the cutest cousins! And their 4th of July outfits matched so well also! Those two are going to be such good friends when they get older! I can just tell!
Third. H is for Home! Just because I have officially been in Kansas for the last 2 weeks doesn't mean I have really been home. Yesterday was my first day since I had been back that I didn't have to prepare for anything...the State Farm cookout...4th of July...Young Professionals party...I just relaxed! I watched One Tree Hill and Because I said So and just relaxed! Oh it felt so good! It has been awhile since I had that relaxation! And of course it won't happen for too long because Thursday we are going to OKC again to get my couch and maybe stop out by LCCC. But yesterday, today, and tomorrow will be great days for me! Because I don't have to do anything! Aww...the feeling! I missed it!
Well thats all..hope you all have a wonderful day!!
'She smiles and laughs like all the rest...There's so much that she needs to get off her chest...At one point her smile was real...But now she only puts it on so people dont make a big deal...'
First off, H is for Heartache because of some recent events with men in my life. I don't know why I would go down the path of heartache with a certain someone once again in my life but I did...I thought he had changed. He hadn't, but I'm on the right track and at least this time I went down that path it only lasted a week and a half instead of another 2 1/2 years!
Second. H is for Happy! This weekend was one of the greatest weekends of my life! I got to spend every second of it with my adorable nieces! They are so amazing and cute! I swear that Jaylen is started reaching for me one time! I heard her say 'dada' and she just always smiled! I got to hold her in church as well and she just was so cuddly! Aww I love it! And she went in the pool with me as well! She had a cute little floating device! Mel and G called it her 'boat' I thought she just looked so cute in it! And Macy was there too! She was rolling over..spittin up on me..and just looking so adorable! Both of my nieces wore their pisa shirts we got them from Italy one day and they were the cutest cousins! And their 4th of July outfits matched so well also! Those two are going to be such good friends when they get older! I can just tell!
Third. H is for Home! Just because I have officially been in Kansas for the last 2 weeks doesn't mean I have really been home. Yesterday was my first day since I had been back that I didn't have to prepare for anything...the State Farm cookout...4th of July...Young Professionals party...I just relaxed! I watched One Tree Hill and Because I said So and just relaxed! Oh it felt so good! It has been awhile since I had that relaxation! And of course it won't happen for too long because Thursday we are going to OKC again to get my couch and maybe stop out by LCCC. But yesterday, today, and tomorrow will be great days for me! Because I don't have to do anything! Aww...the feeling! I missed it!
Well thats all..hope you all have a wonderful day!!
'She smiles and laughs like all the rest...There's so much that she needs to get off her chest...At one point her smile was real...But now she only puts it on so people dont make a big deal...'
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
Just a quick bragging post...:)
Just for one quick note...I want to brag right now that I have a slight 60% feeling that I might follow in my papas footsteps and take on the family business! State Farm! haha! It would be cool right? Go on all those cool trips...make lots of money...and actually have time with my family too! Today I took the first step into agency! I sold 3 lines of insurance! YAY! I sold an auto policy, a renters policy, and life insurance! Definitely saved my customer 40 dollars because she was already paying about 250 a month on just auto...with S.F. she pays about 210 a month for auto, renters, and life! So definitely did some good!
Well I just wanted to state the fact that there is a big possibility that I might go into insurance later on in life...not that I don't want to be a teacher anymore because i do...but you know what? I make more money being an agent! lol! Can't rely on someone else forever...haha! Thats all for now..just needed some bragging room for my selling ability of insurance! YEAH!
Oh and also, I was searching through blogs today...and saw this hilarious statement and I couldn't help but crack up!
'I realized this weekend that the size 4 clothes are in the big-girls section of Target; along with training bras, fake hair pieces, hip-hop dance wear, and hooker earrings. I need a sedative....'
What has this world come to?
Well I just wanted to state the fact that there is a big possibility that I might go into insurance later on in life...not that I don't want to be a teacher anymore because i do...but you know what? I make more money being an agent! lol! Can't rely on someone else forever...haha! Thats all for now..just needed some bragging room for my selling ability of insurance! YEAH!
Oh and also, I was searching through blogs today...and saw this hilarious statement and I couldn't help but crack up!
'I realized this weekend that the size 4 clothes are in the big-girls section of Target; along with training bras, fake hair pieces, hip-hop dance wear, and hooker earrings. I need a sedative....'
What has this world come to?
Friday, June 27, 2008
Finally Back to the States!!!
Wow...my cruise was awesome! I never knew how different a foreign country would be. It blew my mind! This post will obviously be a long one but their will be lots of pictures I promise!
This was how we got to the shopping areas! They dropped us off on level 1 and we took an elevator up to level 7! There country is kind of backwards to us! Because you always go up! No matter what...drive up...elevator up...walk up...when you are going somewhere you always go up. But when you are coming back..you go down! It was crazy! lol!
First, beginner session! That was an awesome 2 days! The girls in my cabin were just the most adorable girls in the world! I really think they touched my heart those two days! I don't know what I would do without Lariat Creek! Here's a couple of pictures of my girls!
Thats Destri! She was so cute! 
Thats Destri! She was so cute! That was our whole cabin! Lauren and I were counselors together! It was awesome! I really miss her too! 
Awww little miss Isabella! She was adorable! 
And miss Lena! These girls were amazing! These were just a few of them! All of the others were adorable too but Like i said...can't overflow you with pictures! Oh and BTW...Lena is totally wearing my clothes right there! haha! She didn't have mud clothes so I let her borrow some! YEAH!
Now, on to my cruise! Day 1 - Was just the flight...wow..what a long flight it was! 8 1/2 hours going there! We watched two movies! The bad thing was that we left at 10 A.M. one day and got to Rome about 6 A.M. the next day! So sleeping was a problem! We finally got to the boat around 9 or so because we had to go through Customs and get our baggage etc...
Talk about having a PikePass right? In italy they had a 'Telepass' lol!
Day 2 - We took a tour to Taormina and Castlemola on the Island of Sicily! It was pretty awesome! We shopped around the town for awhile! I saw some interesting things. There were mimes on the streets just standing in some form trying to get people to give them money! Here's one that is pretty cool!
See his little can? And anytime someone would put a coin in he would change positions....the funny thing was that we met these 3 people from england! 2 older ladies and one's husband! They were adorable! One of the ladies kept catching me with my jaw dropped just looking at this guy! He was impressively adorable?! His tie stayed like that too! Never moved!
We also went to Castlemola, Sicily on the first day! This was the castle! It was so high! Check out the view in this next picture
And this is the little restaurant that we had a snack at as well in Castlemola! 
Next - Day 2! We went to Valletta, Malta! It was pretty amazing! The walls there are so cool! And yes they did it...drove on the wrong side of the road! And the cars were backwards! lol! Totally unreal to me! 
Do you see it! The steering wheel! It's on the wrong side! AHHH!!! lol! Just thought I would prove it to you!
Check out the walls! They are pretty cool! Just picture it...the whole town looked like this! Totally reminds you of the Old Testament! Like I don't know how everyone else pictures the old testament in their heads but this is what I see...this type of city! It was crazy! 
Speaking of the bible! Remember in Acts when Paul was shipwrecked on the island of Malta around 79 AD? Well it actually wasn't the island of Malta itself or at least not today..because this island right here...is called 'St.Paul's Island' its the actual place where he was shipwrecked. You can see on the left side of the picture that it is really close to Malta so at one point it could have been connected but there she be...the actual island he was shipwrecked! Talk about the bible coming to life right??
Another thing about Malta was the castles! Check out the domes in the background! And all the boats in the picture! This was just a marina! Totally packed with boats! It was awesome! 
These were vineyards in Malta! They were everywhere! I couldn't believe how much wine was produced! It was pretty cool to see all the vineyards!
Day 3 - Dubrovnik, Croatia!
Look at the waterfall in this pic! We went to this cute little restaurant and this was the scenery! The whole entire place was hott and dry but we went down into this restaurant and look at the water! Beatiful I must say! 
The coolest part was that the town had a drawbridge! Do you see it in this picture? It was so cool! lol!
This is a picture of inside the town! Lets just say in the 'old town' there was no grass! lol! Outside the 'old town' city walls there is an entire city added onto the old part of town and that has grass and everything else but inside the huge city walls there is none! lol!
Day 4 - Pompeii & Sorrento! So on the second coolest day we had..my camera died! lol! So I will have to add pictures of these two towns later! My mom took lots and I'll get them from her!
Day 5 - We were at sea! Didn't stop at any ports! My mom and I enjoyed our time at the spa and just relaxed all day! It was amazing! lol!
Day 6 - Livorno & Pisa, Italy! Yep I climbed it! I climbed the leaning tower of pisa! It's awesome! It leaned so far over! I totally almost fell on the steps because they kept leaning and getting smaller and smaller! Here's some pictures of us climbing the tower!
Isn't she a beauty?
At the top just before we reached the highest part of the tower their were bells all around!
Within the field of miracles which is were the leaning tower sits there is a baptistry, a hospital, a cathedral, museums, and lots of little shops. Above is a picture of the baptistry!
This is the cathedral that we went in! It was humongous!!! I was so impressed with all of the architecture!
Inside the cathedral they made the women wear those blue things to cover our shoulders for respect and the men had to take off their hats!
Well That is about all the pictures I am going to post for now! i might put some more up there later but for now this post has gotten way tooo long! Hope you enjoyed this post! It took awhile to make! lol! This quote is exactly what I missed while I was in Italy!
'Home is not where you live, but where they understand you'
Monday, June 16, 2008
G is for....
GONE CRUISIN!!!! YAY!!!
Everyone I will be in the waters of the Mediterannean Sea for the next 9 days so therefore I won't be posting! I am going to be sailing around the 'boot of Italy' and will be climbing the Leaning Tower of Pisa and so much other fun things! When I get back I am going to update you all on my trip to Colorado, Beginner Session, and this Cruise and tell you all of the other exciting places I went! I have been super busy that I haven't had time for awhile at all! My next update will have lots of pictures I promise! Our flight leaves Tuesday at 10 AM. and I will be flying about 17 hours over seas so pray for me please! I'm a little scared! I have been to Hawaii but it was never this long! I'm super excited though! I will update when I get back! Love you all! Hope your next 2 weeks are AMAZING!!!
"Italy, the spring, and your first love all together should suffice to make the gloomiest person happy."
-Bertrand Russell
Thursday, June 5, 2008
E & F is for.....
Everlasting friendships....
I know its cheesy and its an adjective but today my mom and I are traveling to the good old Lariat Creek! it's that time again....it's beginner session! YAY! I have been in charge of the crafts for a few years now and I pretty much just love it! and lariat creek always reminds me of friendships. Last night I talked to one of my best friends in the whole world, Lauren! We basically grew up together in Alva and she is going to counsel with me this weekend! I'm thrilled! It might be only a weekend but let me just say that we are going to have a HUGE beginner session! Michael said that we already have like 40 kids and thats not including all those walk-ins that just show up on the day! lol! hopefully for my craft we wont go over 52 too much...because that is all the crafts I have. I will have to make more if the numbers start to add up to much! haha! also, in regards to everlasting friendships, i know that mel sure did find one down there because yep...she married him! haha! and obviously by her last post...it was the right decision! And also, Micheal found one of his best friends out there too! He passed away last August which I know was really hard on him. It was very sad to see Matt go but he is in a better place and i know that he's just watching over all of us now. This past weekend Michael went out to camp and spread his ashes out there. So that was nice. But like I said....Lariat Creek can give you everlasting friendships. It's pretty amazing how great some of the people you meet out there are.
So I am pretty stoked about going out to the camp! I went there over the work day but other than that I probably haven't been there in about a year. I really miss it sometimes. Back in the day when church camp was all that mattered! Oh I loved those days! But everyone has to grow up one day! Michael I guess never has to grow up because he is still the director at one! Maybe one day I can be a 'permanent counselor' at one of the longer sessions. haha do they have those? i really don't know. I pretty much am a permanent counselor at beginner session! haha! I love it! I decided that I'm going to do that session every year until my nieces are that old. then after they graduate to go to Junior session I am going to quit beginner. Hopefully I will have put in enough years since it has to be about 10 more! Yikes! lol! That sounds like alot, but at the rate both my adorable nieces are growing it will almost happen tomorrow! :)
Well, I think thats about it...I am almost off work and then I have to work out and get on the road! AHHH I haven't even packed yet! haha! But I will be ok! Hope you all have a wonderful weekend! I will update when I get home from camp!
Love you all!
"When God gave you to me he never said that you were mine, that I could keep you always--only borrowed for a time. Now, He's called you home, I'm sad and I shed tears. Yet, I'm glad He loaned you to me and we had these many years."
-Edna Burch
I know its cheesy and its an adjective but today my mom and I are traveling to the good old Lariat Creek! it's that time again....it's beginner session! YAY! I have been in charge of the crafts for a few years now and I pretty much just love it! and lariat creek always reminds me of friendships. Last night I talked to one of my best friends in the whole world, Lauren! We basically grew up together in Alva and she is going to counsel with me this weekend! I'm thrilled! It might be only a weekend but let me just say that we are going to have a HUGE beginner session! Michael said that we already have like 40 kids and thats not including all those walk-ins that just show up on the day! lol! hopefully for my craft we wont go over 52 too much...because that is all the crafts I have. I will have to make more if the numbers start to add up to much! haha! also, in regards to everlasting friendships, i know that mel sure did find one down there because yep...she married him! haha! and obviously by her last post...it was the right decision! And also, Micheal found one of his best friends out there too! He passed away last August which I know was really hard on him. It was very sad to see Matt go but he is in a better place and i know that he's just watching over all of us now. This past weekend Michael went out to camp and spread his ashes out there. So that was nice. But like I said....Lariat Creek can give you everlasting friendships. It's pretty amazing how great some of the people you meet out there are.
So I am pretty stoked about going out to the camp! I went there over the work day but other than that I probably haven't been there in about a year. I really miss it sometimes. Back in the day when church camp was all that mattered! Oh I loved those days! But everyone has to grow up one day! Michael I guess never has to grow up because he is still the director at one! Maybe one day I can be a 'permanent counselor' at one of the longer sessions. haha do they have those? i really don't know. I pretty much am a permanent counselor at beginner session! haha! I love it! I decided that I'm going to do that session every year until my nieces are that old. then after they graduate to go to Junior session I am going to quit beginner. Hopefully I will have put in enough years since it has to be about 10 more! Yikes! lol! That sounds like alot, but at the rate both my adorable nieces are growing it will almost happen tomorrow! :)
Well, I think thats about it...I am almost off work and then I have to work out and get on the road! AHHH I haven't even packed yet! haha! But I will be ok! Hope you all have a wonderful weekend! I will update when I get home from camp!
Love you all!
"When God gave you to me he never said that you were mine, that I could keep you always--only borrowed for a time. Now, He's called you home, I'm sad and I shed tears. Yet, I'm glad He loaned you to me and we had these many years."
-Edna Burch
Monday, June 2, 2008
D is for...
Decision Making...Well it has come into my thoughts that Oklahoma Christian is not right for me. I understand that some will be dissapointed and some will be happy but it just isn't the right place for me. Changing schools in my academic career has become to be a repetitive occuring event and yes this will be adding to that list. But I am transferring back home to Wichita State University. I want to be closer to my parents honestly and I have good influential friends here as well. My spiritual life really did suffer at Oklahoma Christian as unreal as that sounds. I just didn't get the right surroundings or vibe from others at OC. Here in Kansas I have began to really get along and make a lot better friends with the Young Professionals/College class at Eastpoint. I just truely think that being back here in Wichita will help my Spiritual life and will help me to focus on my studies more so that I wont fail anymore or slack off and make bad grades.
So therefore my D is decision making because it has become to overtake my life. This will hopefully be the last college I attend and will graduate from. Thats all for now...I have an eye doctor appointment soon but I wanted to let you all know about my decision.
Choose always the way that seems the best, however rough it may be. Custom will soon render it easy and agreeable.
-Pythagoras
So therefore my D is decision making because it has become to overtake my life. This will hopefully be the last college I attend and will graduate from. Thats all for now...I have an eye doctor appointment soon but I wanted to let you all know about my decision.
Choose always the way that seems the best, however rough it may be. Custom will soon render it easy and agreeable.
-Pythagoras
Friday, May 23, 2008
C is for.....
Curves!! So recently my mom and I have started going to Curves! It is pretty exciting! I know i know what you all are thinking...aren't you a little young to go there? Nope i'm not! It's fun! It really is! And quite frankly I have made some awesome friends with older women..older women meaning those beautiful 29 year olds such as my mom! :D
We have been waking up and going every other morning before I have to go to work! It's early I know but it really helps you start your day out right! Exercise! It's such a great thing whenever it can be done in such a fun way! I like the music and the machines and the fact that it doesn't KILL me! lol! It is also a very good mother-daughter bonding experience! I really am starting to like it!
Well today I have also been holding down this office up here at State Farm all by myself! YAY! lol! Dad has been out of the office for about an hour and all morning it has just been me up here in the front! Judy has to take some classes so she has isolated herself in the back office for the morning..Libby has the day off...Charlie isn't here either...so its pretty much just me! YEAH! lol! the phone has been ringing off the hook and people are walking in all the time! It is just exciting! i actually like being busy and having things to do! i can't wait until the day that I have my own real job and actually have things to do!
Well I think thats just about it, I better get back to work, it already took me about an hour to type this whole post between phone calls and customers. Hope you all have a good day!
This is one of my favorite letters from P.S. I Love You
"Dear Holly, I don't have much time. I don't mean literally, I mean you're out buying ice cream and you'll be home soon. But I have a feeling this is the last letter, because there is only one thing left to tell you. It isn't to go down memory lane or make you buy a lamp, you can take care of yourself without any help from me. It's to tell you how much you move me, how you changed me. You made me a man, by loving me Holly. And for that, I am eternally grateful... literally. If you can promise me anything, promise me that whenever you're sad, or unsure, or you lose complete faith, that you'll try to see yourself through my eyes. Thank you for the honor of being my wife. I'm a man with no regrets. How lucky am I. You made my life, Holly. But I'm just one chapter in yours. There'll be more. I promise. So here it comes, the big one. Don't be afraid to fall in love again. Watch out for that signal, when life as you know it ends. P.S. I will always love you."
-P.S. I Love You
We have been waking up and going every other morning before I have to go to work! It's early I know but it really helps you start your day out right! Exercise! It's such a great thing whenever it can be done in such a fun way! I like the music and the machines and the fact that it doesn't KILL me! lol! It is also a very good mother-daughter bonding experience! I really am starting to like it!
Well today I have also been holding down this office up here at State Farm all by myself! YAY! lol! Dad has been out of the office for about an hour and all morning it has just been me up here in the front! Judy has to take some classes so she has isolated herself in the back office for the morning..Libby has the day off...Charlie isn't here either...so its pretty much just me! YEAH! lol! the phone has been ringing off the hook and people are walking in all the time! It is just exciting! i actually like being busy and having things to do! i can't wait until the day that I have my own real job and actually have things to do!
Well I think thats just about it, I better get back to work, it already took me about an hour to type this whole post between phone calls and customers. Hope you all have a good day!
This is one of my favorite letters from P.S. I Love You
"Dear Holly, I don't have much time. I don't mean literally, I mean you're out buying ice cream and you'll be home soon. But I have a feeling this is the last letter, because there is only one thing left to tell you. It isn't to go down memory lane or make you buy a lamp, you can take care of yourself without any help from me. It's to tell you how much you move me, how you changed me. You made me a man, by loving me Holly. And for that, I am eternally grateful... literally. If you can promise me anything, promise me that whenever you're sad, or unsure, or you lose complete faith, that you'll try to see yourself through my eyes. Thank you for the honor of being my wife. I'm a man with no regrets. How lucky am I. You made my life, Holly. But I'm just one chapter in yours. There'll be more. I promise. So here it comes, the big one. Don't be afraid to fall in love again. Watch out for that signal, when life as you know it ends. P.S. I will always love you."
-P.S. I Love You
Thursday, May 22, 2008
B is for......
Bite! Yesterday I told you all that I had to go to a Podiatrist. Well he told me that I had to start taking care of my feet more so I had to have orthotics made for my feet. The doctor said that I could either wear the orthotics in my shoes to prevent from future surgery that much be done or do nothing and wait until it is time to do surgery. Picking the first option these orthotics will just prevent my feet from requiring any surgery. These orthotics are going to be inserts that I put in my shoes from now on. The only bad thing is that I can't put them into just any shoe. They have to be put into certain shoes that honestly aren't THAT pretty and stylish but I think I can manage. Bite is a brand name of some shoes that I found that satisfy my stylish need and my orthotic need. It isn't the only pair that I want to get but they are a possibility. I am going to be selling lots of my shoes because I can't wear them anymore and just going to buy maybe 3 pairs that will work with my orthotics that I can wear every day. Its not the best news that I could have gotten but at least I can prevent surgery. The orthotics won't cure the shape of my foot but it will help stop the progression of this 'deformity', is how the doctor states it . So my word for B is Bite because that will probably be one of my favorite brands of shoes for the rest of my life. :) It won't be too bad but at least it isn't worse.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
A is for....
Hello everyone! So I decided that since all I used my blog for was venting and whining I have to start something new! But its not really new its just repetitive...haha! Because everyone has been doing the good old alphabet thing! It's My Turn
A is for......Ambulate!
This past week I have been feeling this pain in my right foot that has started to really hurt every now and then. I don't know what it is but it is bad enough that today at 1 I am going to a Podiatrist. Hopefully he/she will look at my foot and maybe take some X-rays and tell me what I can do to make my feet feel better! My word today, ambulate, means 'to move about or more from place to place' therefore if something happens today with this doctor then I might not be able to ambulate when I go on the cruise in June with the parentals! But hopefully he will just tell me that I have to wear better shoes or even corrective shoes! i never thought it would get that bad but I guess it has!
I also wanted to say that I feel so blessed today because of all the children in my life! I have nieces and hopefully one day nephews and cousins and just good friends! All of the babies and kids in my family are starting to grow up so fast and I just want to be there in their lives! I can't wait to go to Minnesota for Thanksgiving to see all of those kids! And soon I am going to Colorado and I can see a little bit older ones as well! they are all just so important to me and unfortunately I don't think I appreciated them before in my life but I am really excited to see my family and begin to appreciate them!
My family has become so important to me this past week or so and I am so grateful for all of them!
Like I said...It's time to grow up!
'Iris, in the movies we have leading ladies and we have the best friend. You, I can tell, are a leading lady, but for some reason you are behaving like the best friend.'
-The Holiday
A is for......Ambulate!
This past week I have been feeling this pain in my right foot that has started to really hurt every now and then. I don't know what it is but it is bad enough that today at 1 I am going to a Podiatrist. Hopefully he/she will look at my foot and maybe take some X-rays and tell me what I can do to make my feet feel better! My word today, ambulate, means 'to move about or more from place to place' therefore if something happens today with this doctor then I might not be able to ambulate when I go on the cruise in June with the parentals! But hopefully he will just tell me that I have to wear better shoes or even corrective shoes! i never thought it would get that bad but I guess it has!
I also wanted to say that I feel so blessed today because of all the children in my life! I have nieces and hopefully one day nephews and cousins and just good friends! All of the babies and kids in my family are starting to grow up so fast and I just want to be there in their lives! I can't wait to go to Minnesota for Thanksgiving to see all of those kids! And soon I am going to Colorado and I can see a little bit older ones as well! they are all just so important to me and unfortunately I don't think I appreciated them before in my life but I am really excited to see my family and begin to appreciate them!
My family has become so important to me this past week or so and I am so grateful for all of them!
Like I said...It's time to grow up!
'Iris, in the movies we have leading ladies and we have the best friend. You, I can tell, are a leading lady, but for some reason you are behaving like the best friend.'
-The Holiday
Monday, May 19, 2008
The new look....and now the new life!
So you like the new look? I decided that this blog was no longer going to be some depressing thing that makes me more sad about my life...I'm going to be a much happier person now! My mom and I are starting to get along a lot more! I have a job that lets me get away sometimes! I am starting to go to the Young Professionals group at Eastpoint and quite frankly I LOVE IT! Its a lot of fun! I went last night for one of the first times outside of the church building and i had so much fun! I also decided that guys aren't worth my trouble. As much as I eventually want a significant other in my life they are too much stress and trouble for now. When the right one comes...I'll know! I have so many other things to worry about...those adorable nieces of mine...beginner session...going to Colorado...going on the cruise...mending my walk with Christ...and just trying to cope! Definitely not in that order but the list can go on quite a while farther!
So I have decided to just focus on the important things and as my mom says "Get your priorities right" haha! she makes me laugh! Oh another awesome thing is that my mom txts now! Isn't that awesome!! BUT...she will only txt her beloved children! haha! I accepted that! And also...shes using T9! Isn't that just hilarious!??? I love it so much!
I also want to make another shout out today to my adorable beautiful niece Jaylen! Today she turned 6 months old and I am so happy!! She is growing up so fast and I am just in shock everytime I see her she is so big! Pretty soon she is going to be saying no to boys! haha! Well...hopefully it doesn't come that fast! She is so adorable I can't help just love her!
Pretty soon its going to Macy getting to be this big! My life as an Aunt could never be better! Two nieces growing up to be so amazingly beautiful at the same time! It's an amazing feeling!
I guess thats all for now...I might post some pictures up later! But as for now...I'm just growing up...20 years later...and i'm finally going to grow up! haha!
"As my apprentice, you are never fired"
-God
So I have decided to just focus on the important things and as my mom says "Get your priorities right" haha! she makes me laugh! Oh another awesome thing is that my mom txts now! Isn't that awesome!! BUT...she will only txt her beloved children! haha! I accepted that! And also...shes using T9! Isn't that just hilarious!??? I love it so much!
I also want to make another shout out today to my adorable beautiful niece Jaylen! Today she turned 6 months old and I am so happy!! She is growing up so fast and I am just in shock everytime I see her she is so big! Pretty soon she is going to be saying no to boys! haha! Well...hopefully it doesn't come that fast! She is so adorable I can't help just love her!
Pretty soon its going to Macy getting to be this big! My life as an Aunt could never be better! Two nieces growing up to be so amazingly beautiful at the same time! It's an amazing feeling!
I guess thats all for now...I might post some pictures up later! But as for now...I'm just growing up...20 years later...and i'm finally going to grow up! haha!
"As my apprentice, you are never fired"
-God
Thursday, May 8, 2008
Time for a change...
Well it is that time....for 5 years I haven't ever cut my hair in too much a different way until today! I officially cut all my hair off and lets just say I look older...more mature...so here's some pics of it so you can make the decision! but It's so short now! AHHH!!!! Hope you like it!
Saturday, April 26, 2008
is SHE single? not me...SHE
Have you ever been that one girl that it seems like every time you think that something is going really good with a guy he says "So your friend, (name), is she single?" or something along the lines as "I really like talking to you and I feel like I can express myself to you, and I was just wondering if you could help me talk to your friend, (name)?".....Yeah I'm one of those girls....I am trying my hardest to not even think about guys and just focus on school...one problem! I HAVE NO SCHOOL for 4 days! AHHH!!!! thank goodness I am down to 3 days but still its a hard 3 days! When I'm hanging out with my guy friends and those questions come up it just hurts sometimes. Then I tell them "She has a boyfriend" or "Yeah I don't think your her type" they never get the hint "LOOK RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU" AHHHHHHH!!!!!!! Boys can be so dumb sometimes! I try my hardest to leave them alone and yet the still seem to hurt me...why is this happening! Next time I have the option of staying at mel and G's house or POSSIBLY hanging out with some guy.....im picking mel and G's!
Well enough of venting for tonight....it's just hard to be the go-between friend.....Well it's 4 A.M. and I can't sleep...this sucks! And mel is picking me up at 730! yikes! Alright...bye all! Sorry for my ventilation but that is really what this blog is turning out to be...a ventilation! And sometimes it is needed!
Friday, April 18, 2008
I PASSED!!!!
So just a real quick update on some super good news! This morning I went to IT and asked them if I could take a CLEP exam for Elements of Math I so I could get those 3 credit hours without taking the class! I sat down, listening to my music, and just went through each question. I almost didn't remember that I was taking a test! But I did it. Finished with 13 minutes left on the clock. I actually thought I missed a few and just accepted that whatever I got was ok. And the screen came up and I PASSED! I got above the required amount! The second CLEP test I have ever taken and I passed them both! I was so excited that I had to tell everyone!
So that's 3 more hours towards graduating! YEAH! Well, hope everyone has a great day! Had to share my good news! LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!
So that's 3 more hours towards graduating! YEAH! Well, hope everyone has a great day! Had to share my good news! LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Being a Writer...
I used to think about being a writer. Put my thoughts on paper. I always wanted to touch the lives of others and tell everyone about my life, my mistakes, my victories. For some reason, I would start writing down my thoughts and never finish it. I want to finish those stories. Love is something that I have become to believe can happen to someone if they don't look for it. My sister, she was around 12 years old at church camp. The only thing a girl is supposed to be thinking of then is how boys have cooties and how to do their hair. She wasn't looking for anything but that. And she found the most amazing person in her life. She found her life partner. Who would have thought that some boy in the seventh grade would end up being the best thing that ever happened to her. I look at those two and it just makes me ache because I don't have that. I want to find that person that makes my life worth living. I have been looking for that one person or that certain thing for so long. And I am coming to realize that it isn't going to come to me. I have to stop looking. I have to give up the search and be patient. My sis wasn't looking for a husband in seventh grade but little did she know....she got one! I decided that I have to give up the search. No matter how much pressure OC puts on the students so that they will marry before graduation I have to look past that. I have to stop thinking that I am going to actually find what I am looking for. I have to let God look for me and then let me in on the details later.
So to replace my endless search for the perfect mate, I am going to start finishing those stories. Start looking for the end to my stories. I was watching a TV show tonight and it just really hit me the fact that I have to be patient and God will provide a perfect husband for me one day. I will have the happiness that I see those characters having one day as long as I am patient.
As an end to this blog...no more searching for the perfect mate. No more walking around picking out prospects. No more. One day, I am going to look up from whatever it is that I am doing and my answer will come to me. My answer to life, to love, and my way to happiness.
So to replace my endless search for the perfect mate, I am going to start finishing those stories. Start looking for the end to my stories. I was watching a TV show tonight and it just really hit me the fact that I have to be patient and God will provide a perfect husband for me one day. I will have the happiness that I see those characters having one day as long as I am patient.
As an end to this blog...no more searching for the perfect mate. No more walking around picking out prospects. No more. One day, I am going to look up from whatever it is that I am doing and my answer will come to me. My answer to life, to love, and my way to happiness.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
It's Been Awhile...
Sorry It has been awhile since I post on my blog! My life has been pretty hectic! Soccer intramurals started so those have been painfully taking over my life! I'm not even going to start talking about boys because they are too complicated to explain. There really isn't any...but when you start to like a certain guy and then all of a sudden you get up the guts to ask him to your banquet...he makes an excuse and says no! what does that mean? I don't understand? Sometimes I fear that I am one of those girls that all the guys talk about that is annoying and they are just thinking "why wont she just leave" when i AIM them or text them...I sometimes don't get it. Is it because he didn't know me well enough? Or because I wasn't pretty enough? I don't know what it was! Sometimes I wish that guys would just give me a chance. And then I have other guys that would date me or would have gone with me in a second....but I don't have that attraction for them. I don't understand?
A Guy likes me...I don't like them. I Like a Guy....They don't like me.
Why doesn't my life make sense? I see all those movies where the girl just happens to fall for the right guy and they break up and then she just happens to go to the right place when she happens to find him again and miraculously fall back in love! Where are the movies that tell me how my life is?
fall for the wrong guy...we don't break up for a long time....my heart and body and soul and mind get emotionally screwed up...then when we finally do break up and no one wants to date me...the right guy is already taken.
Where are those movies that make me feel like im not alone? i dont understand...or why doesn't my life match another movie? In the movies if the girl doesnt have the boyfriend...she has the job...the brains...the friends...and what do i have? nope..nothing.. lol
Well...enough of my venting for one day!
I'm just watching August Rush and trying to deal with life! Hope you all have a great day!
But seriously...It's been awhile.....
A Guy likes me...I don't like them. I Like a Guy....They don't like me.
Why doesn't my life make sense? I see all those movies where the girl just happens to fall for the right guy and they break up and then she just happens to go to the right place when she happens to find him again and miraculously fall back in love! Where are the movies that tell me how my life is?
fall for the wrong guy...we don't break up for a long time....my heart and body and soul and mind get emotionally screwed up...then when we finally do break up and no one wants to date me...the right guy is already taken.
Where are those movies that make me feel like im not alone? i dont understand...or why doesn't my life match another movie? In the movies if the girl doesnt have the boyfriend...she has the job...the brains...the friends...and what do i have? nope..nothing.. lol
Well...enough of my venting for one day!
I'm just watching August Rush and trying to deal with life! Hope you all have a great day!
But seriously...It's been awhile.....
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
BEST LYRICS!!!
Well I don't have much time to update my blog at the moment because I have an Iota meeting in like 15 minutes! BUT! I wanted to tell you all the final tallies on Spring Sing and the fact that we WON BEST LYRICS! YEAH!!!!!
1st place - Gamma; Miss Piggy
2nd place - Kappa; Doctors
3rd place - Chi; Batman and Robin
4th place - The freshmen class; Cyclists
5th place - Lambda; Shrek & Donkey
6th place - Alpha; Monty Python and the Alpha Knights
7th place - IOTA; Daphne & Velma
8th place - Tie between Pi; Indiana Jones - and Theta; Alice in Wonderland
Then Beta; Annie, Sigma; Captain Planet, and Delta; Dukes of Hazard came after that but I don't know what order!
Just wanted to let you all know that! Thanks all! LOVE YOU!
GO IOTA!!!!
AND WE WON BEST LYRICS!!!! YEAH!!!!
1st place - Gamma; Miss Piggy
2nd place - Kappa; Doctors
3rd place - Chi; Batman and Robin
4th place - The freshmen class; Cyclists
5th place - Lambda; Shrek & Donkey
6th place - Alpha; Monty Python and the Alpha Knights
7th place - IOTA; Daphne & Velma
8th place - Tie between Pi; Indiana Jones - and Theta; Alice in Wonderland
Then Beta; Annie, Sigma; Captain Planet, and Delta; Dukes of Hazard came after that but I don't know what order!
Just wanted to let you all know that! Thanks all! LOVE YOU!
GO IOTA!!!!
AND WE WON BEST LYRICS!!!! YEAH!!!!
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
CLUB NIGHT!
So, tonight was club night! It was pretty freaking cool! We saw everyone's shows! I was so freaking nervous through the whole thing because we were second to last...But I loved everyone's shows! Ours was super cute! And I had so much fun with it all! All the themes are so freaking awesome! I can't wait until Thursday, Friday, and Saturday! They are going to be soooo much fun! And my family is coming to see me as well so I'm pretty nervous! But It will be great!
I dropped my Parent/Child Relations class today. I know it's bad but i was just lazy for the first 2 tests and promptly forgot (or just didn't) study for them! So My grade in the class was already an F and Dr. Banister told me that it would be ok if I just dropped the class. So, that class was dropped. So the good news with that is that everyday (except Tuesday) I don't have to wake up until chapel. Which makes my life really exciting! Some suite mate issues are going on right now. Apparently she was J's best friend and then she goes on a date with the guy that J likes?? That's messed up. So that is not too good for J! I am sad for her! But she will get through it!
As for me and guys...yeah that's like nonexistent! I am talking to this one guy from Indiana but he is a little younger than me so I don't know how good of a thing it is. But he is still a good friend out of it all! There isn't really anyone else. I sometimes wish there was but yeah it's still hard. I talked to my ex tonight...it was interesting...I don't like talking to him anymore. We aren't going to date again because our past just screwed me up wayyyy too much! But I mean talking to him is still sort of a necessity. It's not important WHY it is a necessity just trust me that it is.
Well, I think that is about it really for right now! Sam is heading to bed and I need to get on that Chemistry homework! Love you all! Have a good day!
I dropped my Parent/Child Relations class today. I know it's bad but i was just lazy for the first 2 tests and promptly forgot (or just didn't) study for them! So My grade in the class was already an F and Dr. Banister told me that it would be ok if I just dropped the class. So, that class was dropped. So the good news with that is that everyday (except Tuesday) I don't have to wake up until chapel. Which makes my life really exciting! Some suite mate issues are going on right now. Apparently she was J's best friend and then she goes on a date with the guy that J likes?? That's messed up. So that is not too good for J! I am sad for her! But she will get through it!
As for me and guys...yeah that's like nonexistent! I am talking to this one guy from Indiana but he is a little younger than me so I don't know how good of a thing it is. But he is still a good friend out of it all! There isn't really anyone else. I sometimes wish there was but yeah it's still hard. I talked to my ex tonight...it was interesting...I don't like talking to him anymore. We aren't going to date again because our past just screwed me up wayyyy too much! But I mean talking to him is still sort of a necessity. It's not important WHY it is a necessity just trust me that it is.
Well, I think that is about it really for right now! Sam is heading to bed and I need to get on that Chemistry homework! Love you all! Have a good day!
Sunday, February 24, 2008
The Lock-In was Fun.....sort of!
Well, this weekend was fun in some ways and pretty bad in some ways. Friday night, Ashford and Brenda and Christie and I all went to the WSU Lock-In! That was pretty fun...we saw some boys, J & E, and they hung out with us all night, literally. Oddly enough I knew J already from my grandma's church. He was that one guy that I always went to her church for, he was so cute and I would always just dream of him talking to me and really actually wanting to get to know me. Unfortunately, for some of the night I thought he was. I thought I kept seeing him look at me or talking to me extra close...little did I know he wanted my friend, brenda. So that was pretty much a hard let down... It wasn't anything too big but I mean it was always that secret that I knew a really hott guy and my friends couldn't come in between that...and then they did. So you know thats life! haha! I don't have pictures of the lock-in just yet on my computer but I will probably post some tomorrow.
So anyway, after that we all came back to my house in wichita and us girls all made breakfast! Because unfortunately my mom was really sick, and in bed! Sad...but hopefully she will be ok soon! Then after breakfast..we were all so worn out from being up all night that we went to sleep! Slept until around 230...well Ashford and Christie left early b/c christie had to be back in winfield earlier! Then Brenda and I woke up and got ready and met Briawna and went to Spangles for lunch! and then just shopped around in Wichita! That's always fun! I didn't buy anything unfortunately but hey thats why its called window shopping! haha! After the shopping, Briawna had to leave to go to something with her church and Brenda wanted to get back to school. So they both left and I was just at home....alone. All day I had been planning some night with all my friends from back there to go to dinner and a movie because I was in town...everyone started out coming and one by one they started dropping out. They would either not want to get out in the weather..or have plans with other friends..or not have any money. Honestly those are the times when you figure out who is your good friends and who isn't. In the end, only 3 of my friends ended up coming with me. I was sad. When one of those three, briawna, usually never is out of her apartment past like 10 and our movie started at 10. And Jenni, she didn't need to be out because she has a three month old son but she wanted to see me bad enough that she went through all the trouble to pay her younger sister to babysit cam for the night. And then james just loves me and he's a good friend so he came with us. We saw Definitely, Maybe. It was so cute! I loved it! and then after that all of us just went to Denny's and had some late night breakfast!
Then finally, today...church was interesting. My ex's mother came up to me and started lecturing me and just talking to me about things that i didn't want to talk about to her. Most of the time I try and not talk to her but on those days, like today, when she just walks right for me like she is on a mission...its hard to dodge her! lol! So we talked for about 15 minutes and then that made me call my ex today and talk to him for a while..and actually he wouldn't even talk to me. He is so mellow and has no opinion on life anymore. It makes me sad. But so that is starting to bother me. I know it has been almost 7 months since we dated but still. We had a big past and its real real hard to overcome that and just forget it. So then when I finally got out of my trap with his mom, my dad and I went to lunch together. Oddly enough, our waiter was the same one who had been my ex's and I's normal everyday waiter. So, him asking about me and my ex was not the best for me. But I guess that is life. Lunch with dad was fun, there are just alot of thoughts goin through my head. Then after Lunch, went back home and took a nap and then woke up and went to Winfield. Ashford and I went to her ex's house for a little bit and then to her house and finally headed home and made it back to OKC.
But on my mind the whole weekend, was that I don't know what I want to do in my life. I don't know what I want my major to be. It's just real hard to decide. And I don't know if I want to go to OC next semester. I'm gonna try and talk to my sister about it this week on Thursday and see what she says, but there is a possibility that I'm not coming back in the Fall. Life is so complicated and confusing at times.
Why is it when I drop everything and come to the Christian college that my morals are shout down the drain, but when I stay at home and attend the Public College, my morals are right and good??
Just Confused -
So anyway, after that we all came back to my house in wichita and us girls all made breakfast! Because unfortunately my mom was really sick, and in bed! Sad...but hopefully she will be ok soon! Then after breakfast..we were all so worn out from being up all night that we went to sleep! Slept until around 230...well Ashford and Christie left early b/c christie had to be back in winfield earlier! Then Brenda and I woke up and got ready and met Briawna and went to Spangles for lunch! and then just shopped around in Wichita! That's always fun! I didn't buy anything unfortunately but hey thats why its called window shopping! haha! After the shopping, Briawna had to leave to go to something with her church and Brenda wanted to get back to school. So they both left and I was just at home....alone. All day I had been planning some night with all my friends from back there to go to dinner and a movie because I was in town...everyone started out coming and one by one they started dropping out. They would either not want to get out in the weather..or have plans with other friends..or not have any money. Honestly those are the times when you figure out who is your good friends and who isn't. In the end, only 3 of my friends ended up coming with me. I was sad. When one of those three, briawna, usually never is out of her apartment past like 10 and our movie started at 10. And Jenni, she didn't need to be out because she has a three month old son but she wanted to see me bad enough that she went through all the trouble to pay her younger sister to babysit cam for the night. And then james just loves me and he's a good friend so he came with us. We saw Definitely, Maybe. It was so cute! I loved it! and then after that all of us just went to Denny's and had some late night breakfast!
Then finally, today...church was interesting. My ex's mother came up to me and started lecturing me and just talking to me about things that i didn't want to talk about to her. Most of the time I try and not talk to her but on those days, like today, when she just walks right for me like she is on a mission...its hard to dodge her! lol! So we talked for about 15 minutes and then that made me call my ex today and talk to him for a while..and actually he wouldn't even talk to me. He is so mellow and has no opinion on life anymore. It makes me sad. But so that is starting to bother me. I know it has been almost 7 months since we dated but still. We had a big past and its real real hard to overcome that and just forget it. So then when I finally got out of my trap with his mom, my dad and I went to lunch together. Oddly enough, our waiter was the same one who had been my ex's and I's normal everyday waiter. So, him asking about me and my ex was not the best for me. But I guess that is life. Lunch with dad was fun, there are just alot of thoughts goin through my head. Then after Lunch, went back home and took a nap and then woke up and went to Winfield. Ashford and I went to her ex's house for a little bit and then to her house and finally headed home and made it back to OKC.
But on my mind the whole weekend, was that I don't know what I want to do in my life. I don't know what I want my major to be. It's just real hard to decide. And I don't know if I want to go to OC next semester. I'm gonna try and talk to my sister about it this week on Thursday and see what she says, but there is a possibility that I'm not coming back in the Fall. Life is so complicated and confusing at times.
Why is it when I drop everything and come to the Christian college that my morals are shout down the drain, but when I stay at home and attend the Public College, my morals are right and good??
Just Confused -
Monday, February 11, 2008
Daphne!!!
Well, these past few days I have tried to overcome some major drama in my life...jealous girlfriends...ex boyfriends....and just trying to balance everything in life. Spring Sing is taking over my life other than all the drama! Our show is going to be super cute! I am so excited to perform it. My club, Iota Kappa Phi, is the brand new club at Oklahoma Christian and we are split up into two groups and half of us are Daphne's from Scooby Doo and half of us are Velma's from Scooby Doo!
I personally am Daphne! I love it! Our costumes are super cute!...Cheesy and Corny but super cute! We are having dark purple dresses with a lighter purple ribbon around the middle and the bottom..they are short sleeve and go down to about our knees...then we are going to wear pink tights underneath them with purple tennis shoes that we are dying ourselves...with a white headband in our hair! Will that not be the cutest ever?? I am so excited! I have waited since my brother was in spring sing as a sailor in delta. I have a picture of him and I when I was so young....I remember thinking that I couldn't wait to be in Spring Sing and now I finally am! I am soooo excited and really nervous at the same time! Haha! But we have had a lot of complements on our show so far and it really makes me happy to be in it. I am in the very front row on one of the songs...the second row and about 4 of the songs..and then I will be in the very back for one song just because it is the "Velma's" song....and that is definitely ok! Gotta give someone else the spotlight!
Other than spring sing right now I don't have much going on! Just trying to balance every day spring sing practice with school! It will be so worth it though! I cannot believe that it is already the middle of february! Isn't that just insane? It seems like a week ago I came back from Christmas break! But its good that this semester is going by fast...
Think about this one...In less than 6 months..I'm going to be a Junior in college! Me...a Junior! Crazy! I just keep feeling old all the time! Well, here is a picture of Daphne from scooby doo so that you all can remember what she looks like....
I personally am Daphne! I love it! Our costumes are super cute!...Cheesy and Corny but super cute! We are having dark purple dresses with a lighter purple ribbon around the middle and the bottom..they are short sleeve and go down to about our knees...then we are going to wear pink tights underneath them with purple tennis shoes that we are dying ourselves...with a white headband in our hair! Will that not be the cutest ever?? I am so excited! I have waited since my brother was in spring sing as a sailor in delta. I have a picture of him and I when I was so young....I remember thinking that I couldn't wait to be in Spring Sing and now I finally am! I am soooo excited and really nervous at the same time! Haha! But we have had a lot of complements on our show so far and it really makes me happy to be in it. I am in the very front row on one of the songs...the second row and about 4 of the songs..and then I will be in the very back for one song just because it is the "Velma's" song....and that is definitely ok! Gotta give someone else the spotlight!
Other than spring sing right now I don't have much going on! Just trying to balance every day spring sing practice with school! It will be so worth it though! I cannot believe that it is already the middle of february! Isn't that just insane? It seems like a week ago I came back from Christmas break! But its good that this semester is going by fast...
Think about this one...In less than 6 months..I'm going to be a Junior in college! Me...a Junior! Crazy! I just keep feeling old all the time! Well, here is a picture of Daphne from scooby doo so that you all can remember what she looks like....
Thursday, January 31, 2008
He Picked Her.
Well, my last post was pretty depressing...this one is just going to sum up the depressing posts...basically she came back and so he had to choose between her and me and unfortunately for me...he chose her, not me. it really hurts but i guess if i would have gone through life without knowing it would have been even worse. so yep there it is...im here again watching my friend fall in love with the guy that i want to be with for the second time..first it was austin and sam...now its these two...ill live.
on the upside of my life! I got to see my wonderful niece jaylen today she is so gorgeous! i love her with all my heart! sometimes i wish life could be like that for me and just be so easy! those were the days of happiness. Mel and I went to the dentist for her and then i took her out to lunch at this little deli in edmond. i had never heard of it but it was really good. Then after that we went to TJMaxx and just shopped! I know us shopping on such a day as this is crazy but its how we connect! And I got a super cute jacket out of it too and bought my lovely Jaylen a wonderfully beautiful sundress! It is so cute! I love spoiling her...especially when it is with my mommy's money! haha....then after that we went back to my dorm because it was just about time for me to go to class. I ran inside the Uhouse to grab my stuff for class and i checked my email real quick and guess what i found?? YEP class was cancelled! IT MADE MY DAY! so i went back outside (almost fell on the ice....too funny) and told mel and Jaylen goodbye. Went to chemistry (found out the bad news i recently informed you of) then came back to my dorm...Went over to carissa's apartment so i could just ignore what was going on...didnt work i just thought about it all more...then after that I went to the Basketball game and stayed for the first half and through the halftime dodgeball game! lol...that was pretty fun! I actually saw Ken Richter at the game with his kids. I didn't talk to him because we left early but it was pretty interesting seeing him there. Unfortunately OC lost but it was still fun!
After the game Carissa and I went to pick up my friend Becca who was sick because she had gotten her wisdom teeth out and needed to go to the store...so we went...came out and carissa's car wouldnt start...called shane..he came and when he got here his car wouldnt start...he got ticked off..started yelling at everyone even me..and then we called mitch and he came and saved the day! lol...it was just very stressful because everyone was cranky and mad and it wasnt helping the situation at all...
When we finally got back I helped my friend out with some of her math cuz she stopped me in the lobby and that was fine...then that guy from earlier(he chose her) wanted to talk..so we did for about 15 minutes...lol got interrupted by "her" and then i went into my room and just talked online to people..and now i am back out here hanging out with him because he wanted to and i couldnt sleep....
ANYWAY...i got this really cute IM tonight...a friend of mine said this is what your horoscope said and i think it is SO true.... it said this...
Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Best kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. ONE OF A KIND.Gorgeous Smile.Not one to mess with. The best sexual partners in the zodiac. Are the most attractive people on earth!
That made my day! well...enough depression and unnecessary information just me venting once again!
Love you all!
on the upside of my life! I got to see my wonderful niece jaylen today she is so gorgeous! i love her with all my heart! sometimes i wish life could be like that for me and just be so easy! those were the days of happiness. Mel and I went to the dentist for her and then i took her out to lunch at this little deli in edmond. i had never heard of it but it was really good. Then after that we went to TJMaxx and just shopped! I know us shopping on such a day as this is crazy but its how we connect! And I got a super cute jacket out of it too and bought my lovely Jaylen a wonderfully beautiful sundress! It is so cute! I love spoiling her...especially when it is with my mommy's money! haha....then after that we went back to my dorm because it was just about time for me to go to class. I ran inside the Uhouse to grab my stuff for class and i checked my email real quick and guess what i found?? YEP class was cancelled! IT MADE MY DAY! so i went back outside (almost fell on the ice....too funny) and told mel and Jaylen goodbye. Went to chemistry (found out the bad news i recently informed you of) then came back to my dorm...Went over to carissa's apartment so i could just ignore what was going on...didnt work i just thought about it all more...then after that I went to the Basketball game and stayed for the first half and through the halftime dodgeball game! lol...that was pretty fun! I actually saw Ken Richter at the game with his kids. I didn't talk to him because we left early but it was pretty interesting seeing him there. Unfortunately OC lost but it was still fun!
After the game Carissa and I went to pick up my friend Becca who was sick because she had gotten her wisdom teeth out and needed to go to the store...so we went...came out and carissa's car wouldnt start...called shane..he came and when he got here his car wouldnt start...he got ticked off..started yelling at everyone even me..and then we called mitch and he came and saved the day! lol...it was just very stressful because everyone was cranky and mad and it wasnt helping the situation at all...
When we finally got back I helped my friend out with some of her math cuz she stopped me in the lobby and that was fine...then that guy from earlier(he chose her) wanted to talk..so we did for about 15 minutes...lol got interrupted by "her" and then i went into my room and just talked online to people..and now i am back out here hanging out with him because he wanted to and i couldnt sleep....
ANYWAY...i got this really cute IM tonight...a friend of mine said this is what your horoscope said and i think it is SO true.... it said this...
Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Best kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. ONE OF A KIND.Gorgeous Smile.Not one to mess with. The best sexual partners in the zodiac. Are the most attractive people on earth!
That made my day! well...enough depression and unnecessary information just me venting once again!
Love you all!
Monday, January 28, 2008
Complicated...
Hello all, I know I haven't posted in a while! I guess things get hectic around here pretty often! Since my last post I have started and stopped liking one guy and begun to start another one again. The first guy that I have already stopped liking seemed like the perfect guy...Youth Ministry Major....had ambitions...really cute...even from Wichita...but for some reason his feelings were there for me too just not as much as they were there for some other girl. After him and I hung out one night and then talked a lot for a few weeks I guess this other girl started talking to him again..It's almost like I was there only to pass the time.
Anyway so that guy went down the drain. And recently I have been hanging out with one of my really good friends. We have been friends since I came to OC and I have really started to like him. Well, before the Christmas break he started talking to another girl, we will call her "C", This guy really liked C and they started talking alot. They had not become an official item before they left school. Over the break he talked to her seldomly and then New Year's Eve he text me. "Myra, do you like me?" and then it all came out...I said yes and he was like I was always too shy to ask you that. We text for the next couple of days and then we finally were back to OC. He kept talking to C and I kind of was just a few conversations over break. It hurt but I guess I thought that our friendship was more important than a relationship. Then he would start asking me advice. Advice on dates and asking her to be his girlfriend. He hurts a lot but he was an amazing friend and I wanted to be there for him. After they started dating, we were just friends. They dated for about 2 weeks and then she all of a sudden broke up with him. He was in complete shock. I am almost positive I was just the rebound for him but he started spending alot of time with me cuddling, flirting, you know the works. Late nights talking or watching movies. This past weekend C was out of town so he spent almost every night with me. Then tonight, we were in the middle of watching a movie and one of his friends comes in and tells him that C is very jealous and upset that he is watching a movie with me. He tells me that earlier tonight C was talking about wanting to get back together with him and he wanted to go talk to her. Of course, here comes friendly Myra again...Of course, go talk to her she definitely wants to get back together with you. I'm sure it will all work out for the best....
And that was it. I left the elevator saying "Later" and walked to my room. We didn't even finish the movie. There I was giving up all that sleep to spend time with him and the second she comes back he just drops me in an instant for her. That part hurts...it hurts alot...this is one of my friends that I have liked since I came to OC I just didnt want to jeopardize our friendship.
What's more important....A friendship or a Relationship? Tough call....but I always try and make sure the other person is happy...even if it means breaking my heart over and over again.
Sorry this was so depressing...didnt say these would be fun and exciting its just a place to vent.
Myra
Anyway so that guy went down the drain. And recently I have been hanging out with one of my really good friends. We have been friends since I came to OC and I have really started to like him. Well, before the Christmas break he started talking to another girl, we will call her "C", This guy really liked C and they started talking alot. They had not become an official item before they left school. Over the break he talked to her seldomly and then New Year's Eve he text me. "Myra, do you like me?" and then it all came out...I said yes and he was like I was always too shy to ask you that. We text for the next couple of days and then we finally were back to OC. He kept talking to C and I kind of was just a few conversations over break. It hurt but I guess I thought that our friendship was more important than a relationship. Then he would start asking me advice. Advice on dates and asking her to be his girlfriend. He hurts a lot but he was an amazing friend and I wanted to be there for him. After they started dating, we were just friends. They dated for about 2 weeks and then she all of a sudden broke up with him. He was in complete shock. I am almost positive I was just the rebound for him but he started spending alot of time with me cuddling, flirting, you know the works. Late nights talking or watching movies. This past weekend C was out of town so he spent almost every night with me. Then tonight, we were in the middle of watching a movie and one of his friends comes in and tells him that C is very jealous and upset that he is watching a movie with me. He tells me that earlier tonight C was talking about wanting to get back together with him and he wanted to go talk to her. Of course, here comes friendly Myra again...Of course, go talk to her she definitely wants to get back together with you. I'm sure it will all work out for the best....
And that was it. I left the elevator saying "Later" and walked to my room. We didn't even finish the movie. There I was giving up all that sleep to spend time with him and the second she comes back he just drops me in an instant for her. That part hurts...it hurts alot...this is one of my friends that I have liked since I came to OC I just didnt want to jeopardize our friendship.
What's more important....A friendship or a Relationship? Tough call....but I always try and make sure the other person is happy...even if it means breaking my heart over and over again.
Sorry this was so depressing...didnt say these would be fun and exciting its just a place to vent.
Myra
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Disappointed...
Well, these past few days were a little hard. I think that sometime I get my hopes up about things and they just get let down....Thursday night when I was planning on making spaghetti at carissa's apartment I invited that cute boy too and of course it was fun! We flirted and just had a fun time....and the whole night i had a sense that he didnt like me but I kept trying to ignore it. Then when I got home my roommate Sam had told me that she had asked him if he liked me while i was in the other room and he said no.....so i guess that one wasn't meant to be....i will still be his friend like we always have been and who knows if it happens one day then it will but for some reason i doubt it will happen...
Then tonight I went on that sort of double blind date....it wasn't really a date to the guy because i dont know if he knew at the beginning but he found out by the end. First we went to his house to pick him up since his car is in California at his apartment where he lives and goes to school....we stayed there for a little bit and i looked in his eyes and really loved the look i saw....it was just amazing what i saw! i just loved his smile and the sparkle in his eyes....i had talked to my mom a little before that and she told me to just be calm and not talk so much so that is what i was trying to do. i let him talk...he talked a lot! i loved it! I got to listen. At dinner (i paid for myself) we just talked and the casual jokes were given and we all just had good conversations. Carissa and Shane were there too remember this...it wasn't just us. lol! But after dinner we went to Ross the department store to see our friend Ashley because we had some time to kill before the movie. That was fun! Carissa bought a super cute dress for spring banquet! After that all of us went back to Carissa's apartment and just hung out there and watched the end of Remember the Titans. We were waiting to go to the late movie so Mitch and Charla could meet up with us. So we went to the movie (I paid for myself again) and this whole time this guy had been flirting with me and just you know having a good time and getting to know eachother. I thought it was going great! So we go to the theatre and we sit close and just talk....and talk....the movie starts and we still talk....we talked through the whole movie...it might not be good but i loved it....i liked that he was paying attention to me and only me a little of the movie but mainly me....it was great...somewhere in there he held my hand and just sat really close to me because the little arm thingy's came up....i loved it. The movie slowly got over a little bit after that and we all got up and left. We were walking to the car and him and I were pretty far behind everyone else so I thought you know he would really talk to me or at least hold my hand more...but no. No hand holding No talking about anything really....we got in the car and i started to kind of scoot closer but it seemed like he didnt even notice i was in the back seat with him....i dont know what the deal was. So they dropped me off and he was like it was nice meeting you....and that was it! i said it back but nothing else....i just cant handle it.....i dont know what to think...was it just a fling while he was in town? because if it is then he should warn me next time....
So that was my night! Not the greatest in the world....it was SOOOO much fun but the ending hurt...i just dont know what to do....well i added him as a friend on facebook so i guess its his turn to make a move....he probably wont because he is leaving monday to go back and it was just a fling...i just have to keep telling myself that....it was just a fling....
Sorry this post is depressing....but i need a way to vent and this was it.....thanks for reading...and listening...
Then tonight I went on that sort of double blind date....it wasn't really a date to the guy because i dont know if he knew at the beginning but he found out by the end. First we went to his house to pick him up since his car is in California at his apartment where he lives and goes to school....we stayed there for a little bit and i looked in his eyes and really loved the look i saw....it was just amazing what i saw! i just loved his smile and the sparkle in his eyes....i had talked to my mom a little before that and she told me to just be calm and not talk so much so that is what i was trying to do. i let him talk...he talked a lot! i loved it! I got to listen. At dinner (i paid for myself) we just talked and the casual jokes were given and we all just had good conversations. Carissa and Shane were there too remember this...it wasn't just us. lol! But after dinner we went to Ross the department store to see our friend Ashley because we had some time to kill before the movie. That was fun! Carissa bought a super cute dress for spring banquet! After that all of us went back to Carissa's apartment and just hung out there and watched the end of Remember the Titans. We were waiting to go to the late movie so Mitch and Charla could meet up with us. So we went to the movie (I paid for myself again) and this whole time this guy had been flirting with me and just you know having a good time and getting to know eachother. I thought it was going great! So we go to the theatre and we sit close and just talk....and talk....the movie starts and we still talk....we talked through the whole movie...it might not be good but i loved it....i liked that he was paying attention to me and only me a little of the movie but mainly me....it was great...somewhere in there he held my hand and just sat really close to me because the little arm thingy's came up....i loved it. The movie slowly got over a little bit after that and we all got up and left. We were walking to the car and him and I were pretty far behind everyone else so I thought you know he would really talk to me or at least hold my hand more...but no. No hand holding No talking about anything really....we got in the car and i started to kind of scoot closer but it seemed like he didnt even notice i was in the back seat with him....i dont know what the deal was. So they dropped me off and he was like it was nice meeting you....and that was it! i said it back but nothing else....i just cant handle it.....i dont know what to think...was it just a fling while he was in town? because if it is then he should warn me next time....
So that was my night! Not the greatest in the world....it was SOOOO much fun but the ending hurt...i just dont know what to do....well i added him as a friend on facebook so i guess its his turn to make a move....he probably wont because he is leaving monday to go back and it was just a fling...i just have to keep telling myself that....it was just a fling....
Sorry this post is depressing....but i need a way to vent and this was it.....thanks for reading...and listening...
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
New Brown Hair!
I found out that I wasn't going to PacRim. It's kind of sad but it will be okay! I'm gonna try and hopefully go in the Summer of 2009 to Vienna. I really want to because a lot of my friends are going there too then. So that is a plus! Today was my second day of chemistry and Acts and Parent/Child Relations. They were all exciting except for Chemistry! Cuz that was kind of boring! Oh and I had my History class too! That was kind of fun cuz I sit with like the whole baseball team too! haha! But so ya know....its just fun! And then tonight I just did some homework with Carissa and we watched "Whatever It Takes" and "The Replacements!" Also I found out that I am definitely going on kind of like a blind double date Friday night with Shane's cousin! He is really cute! I'm definitely nervous and excited at the same time! YEAH! And I started texting this other guy who I think is really cute. But I don't know what is going to happen with him. He has been my friend for a long time and I don't know what will happen with that. I can't really say names because if some crazy thing happens and they read this....it would be embarassing. lol! So yeah! haha!
So I definitely dyed my hair brown and had a comment to put up pictures of it! It's beautiful! I love it! Here are some pictures for you to enjoy! 
I love it and I hope you do too! 
Do you like it???That's carissa with me on the right! And then on the left is like a close up of it!~ But it is super cute! I will try and take better ones a little later. We went bowling that night for really cheap so it was a lot of fun! Tomorrow night we will probably be going to Laser Quest cuz It's cheaper since OC paid for some of it...and we are making Spaghetti in Carissa's apartment and I invited the guy I have been talking to to come too so hopefully he will and it will be fun! Well "hump day" of my first week of classes is finally over! lol! just two more days to go until the weekend! lol! Hope you all have a wonderful rest of the week!
I love it and I hope you do too! 
Do you like it???That's carissa with me on the right! And then on the left is like a close up of it!~ But it is super cute! I will try and take better ones a little later. We went bowling that night for really cheap so it was a lot of fun! Tomorrow night we will probably be going to Laser Quest cuz It's cheaper since OC paid for some of it...and we are making Spaghetti in Carissa's apartment and I invited the guy I have been talking to to come too so hopefully he will and it will be fun! Well "hump day" of my first week of classes is finally over! lol! just two more days to go until the weekend! lol! Hope you all have a wonderful rest of the week! Tuesday, January 8, 2008
2nd Day of Class!
Well today is the second day of class! I have went to all my classes at least once except for my second bible class! It's today at 230! I'm not too worried about it though! My Fitness and Wellness class now meets only once a week so thats good because it isn't too big of a class! All my other classes are going to be pretty fun! My Chemistry class is going to challenge me a little bit but I have a good partner so he can help me! Also, I changed my major AGAIN...but hopefully this is the final time! I'm just a Business major with a minor in Family Studies! Sounds exciting enough right? I like it! This semester I am taking one Family Studies class! I'm excited about it because it's like an Iota thing! There are almost like 7 girls in there that are in Iota with me!
I have an interview today after Bible class at 3:30 to see if I can go on PacRim in the fall! I'm so nervous and yet so excited because I hope that I get to go! YEAH! I will let you all know if I get to go... They are going to make their decision by the end of the week.
Today is also our first Iota meeting for this semester! I'm sooooo excited because we are starting to practice for Spring Sing and that is just going to be the best part of this next semester! Also, I might be an extra in a couple of the other numbers besides with Iota in Spring Sing! I signed up for it so hopefully they will email me back soon! Yeah!
Oh I also died my hair brown! It's beautiful! I love it! It's finally my natural colour and I really like it! It has some blonde highlights in it too but the brown is so pretty!
Well, I think that is just about it! I'm gonna get back to my homework! Love you all! Leave me some comments!
I have an interview today after Bible class at 3:30 to see if I can go on PacRim in the fall! I'm so nervous and yet so excited because I hope that I get to go! YEAH! I will let you all know if I get to go... They are going to make their decision by the end of the week.
Today is also our first Iota meeting for this semester! I'm sooooo excited because we are starting to practice for Spring Sing and that is just going to be the best part of this next semester! Also, I might be an extra in a couple of the other numbers besides with Iota in Spring Sing! I signed up for it so hopefully they will email me back soon! Yeah!
Oh I also died my hair brown! It's beautiful! I love it! It's finally my natural colour and I really like it! It has some blonde highlights in it too but the brown is so pretty!
Well, I think that is just about it! I'm gonna get back to my homework! Love you all! Leave me some comments!
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