He Picked Her.

Well, my last post was pretty depressing...this one is just going to sum up the depressing posts...basically she came back and so he had to choose between her and me and unfortunately for me...he chose her, not me. it really hurts but i guess if i would have gone through life without knowing it would have been even worse. so yep there it is...im here again watching my friend fall in love with the guy that i want to be with for the second time..first it was austin and sam...now its these two...ill live.

on the upside of my life! I got to see my wonderful niece jaylen today she is so gorgeous! i love her with all my heart! sometimes i wish life could be like that for me and just be so easy! those were the days of happiness. Mel and I went to the dentist for her and then i took her out to lunch at this little deli in edmond. i had never heard of it but it was really good. Then after that we went to TJMaxx and just shopped! I know us shopping on such a day as this is crazy but its how we connect! And I got a super cute jacket out of it too and bought my lovely Jaylen a wonderfully beautiful sundress! It is so cute! I love spoiling her...especially when it is with my mommy's money! haha....then after that we went back to my dorm because it was just about time for me to go to class. I ran inside the Uhouse to grab my stuff for class and i checked my email real quick and guess what i found?? YEP class was cancelled! IT MADE MY DAY! so i went back outside (almost fell on the ice....too funny) and told mel and Jaylen goodbye. Went to chemistry (found out the bad news i recently informed you of) then came back to my dorm...Went over to carissa's apartment so i could just ignore what was going on...didnt work i just thought about it all more...then after that I went to the Basketball game and stayed for the first half and through the halftime dodgeball game! lol...that was pretty fun! I actually saw Ken Richter at the game with his kids. I didn't talk to him because we left early but it was pretty interesting seeing him there. Unfortunately OC lost but it was still fun!

After the game Carissa and I went to pick up my friend Becca who was sick because she had gotten her wisdom teeth out and needed to go to the store...so we went...came out and carissa's car wouldnt start...called shane..he came and when he got here his car wouldnt start...he got ticked off..started yelling at everyone even me..and then we called mitch and he came and saved the day! lol...it was just very stressful because everyone was cranky and mad and it wasnt helping the situation at all...

When we finally got back I helped my friend out with some of her math cuz she stopped me in the lobby and that was fine...then that guy from earlier(he chose her) wanted to talk..so we did for about 15 minutes...lol got interrupted by "her" and then i went into my room and just talked online to people..and now i am back out here hanging out with him because he wanted to and i couldnt sleep....

ANYWAY...i got this really cute IM tonight...a friend of mine said this is what your horoscope said and i think it is SO true.... it said this...
Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Best kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. ONE OF A KIND.Gorgeous Smile.Not one to mess with. The best sexual partners in the zodiac. Are the most attractive people on earth!

That made my day! well...enough depression and unnecessary information just me venting once again!

Love you all!

Complicated...

Hello all, I know I haven't posted in a while! I guess things get hectic around here pretty often! Since my last post I have started and stopped liking one guy and begun to start another one again. The first guy that I have already stopped liking seemed like the perfect guy...Youth Ministry Major....had ambitions...really cute...even from Wichita...but for some reason his feelings were there for me too just not as much as they were there for some other girl. After him and I hung out one night and then talked a lot for a few weeks I guess this other girl started talking to him again..It's almost like I was there only to pass the time.
Anyway so that guy went down the drain. And recently I have been hanging out with one of my really good friends. We have been friends since I came to OC and I have really started to like him. Well, before the Christmas break he started talking to another girl, we will call her "C", This guy really liked C and they started talking alot. They had not become an official item before they left school. Over the break he talked to her seldomly and then New Year's Eve he text me. "Myra, do you like me?" and then it all came out...I said yes and he was like I was always too shy to ask you that. We text for the next couple of days and then we finally were back to OC. He kept talking to C and I kind of was just a few conversations over break. It hurt but I guess I thought that our friendship was more important than a relationship. Then he would start asking me advice. Advice on dates and asking her to be his girlfriend. He hurts a lot but he was an amazing friend and I wanted to be there for him. After they started dating, we were just friends. They dated for about 2 weeks and then she all of a sudden broke up with him. He was in complete shock. I am almost positive I was just the rebound for him but he started spending alot of time with me cuddling, flirting, you know the works. Late nights talking or watching movies. This past weekend C was out of town so he spent almost every night with me. Then tonight, we were in the middle of watching a movie and one of his friends comes in and tells him that C is very jealous and upset that he is watching a movie with me. He tells me that earlier tonight C was talking about wanting to get back together with him and he wanted to go talk to her. Of course, here comes friendly Myra again...Of course, go talk to her she definitely wants to get back together with you. I'm sure it will all work out for the best....

And that was it. I left the elevator saying "Later" and walked to my room. We didn't even finish the movie. There I was giving up all that sleep to spend time with him and the second she comes back he just drops me in an instant for her. That part hurts...it hurts alot...this is one of my friends that I have liked since I came to OC I just didnt want to jeopardize our friendship.

What's more important....A friendship or a Relationship? Tough call....but I always try and make sure the other person is happy...even if it means breaking my heart over and over again.

Sorry this was so depressing...didnt say these would be fun and exciting its just a place to vent.

Myra

Disappointed...

Well, these past few days were a little hard. I think that sometime I get my hopes up about things and they just get let down....Thursday night when I was planning on making spaghetti at carissa's apartment I invited that cute boy too and of course it was fun! We flirted and just had a fun time....and the whole night i had a sense that he didnt like me but I kept trying to ignore it. Then when I got home my roommate Sam had told me that she had asked him if he liked me while i was in the other room and he said no.....so i guess that one wasn't meant to be....i will still be his friend like we always have been and who knows if it happens one day then it will but for some reason i doubt it will happen...

Then tonight I went on that sort of double blind date....it wasn't really a date to the guy because i dont know if he knew at the beginning but he found out by the end. First we went to his house to pick him up since his car is in California at his apartment where he lives and goes to school....we stayed there for a little bit and i looked in his eyes and really loved the look i saw....it was just amazing what i saw! i just loved his smile and the sparkle in his eyes....i had talked to my mom a little before that and she told me to just be calm and not talk so much so that is what i was trying to do. i let him talk...he talked a lot! i loved it! I got to listen. At dinner (i paid for myself) we just talked and the casual jokes were given and we all just had good conversations. Carissa and Shane were there too remember this...it wasn't just us. lol! But after dinner we went to Ross the department store to see our friend Ashley because we had some time to kill before the movie. That was fun! Carissa bought a super cute dress for spring banquet! After that all of us went back to Carissa's apartment and just hung out there and watched the end of Remember the Titans. We were waiting to go to the late movie so Mitch and Charla could meet up with us. So we went to the movie (I paid for myself again) and this whole time this guy had been flirting with me and just you know having a good time and getting to know eachother. I thought it was going great! So we go to the theatre and we sit close and just talk....and talk....the movie starts and we still talk....we talked through the whole movie...it might not be good but i loved it....i liked that he was paying attention to me and only me a little of the movie but mainly me....it was great...somewhere in there he held my hand and just sat really close to me because the little arm thingy's came up....i loved it. The movie slowly got over a little bit after that and we all got up and left. We were walking to the car and him and I were pretty far behind everyone else so I thought you know he would really talk to me or at least hold my hand more...but no. No hand holding No talking about anything really....we got in the car and i started to kind of scoot closer but it seemed like he didnt even notice i was in the back seat with him....i dont know what the deal was. So they dropped me off and he was like it was nice meeting you....and that was it! i said it back but nothing else....i just cant handle it.....i dont know what to think...was it just a fling while he was in town? because if it is then he should warn me next time....

So that was my night! Not the greatest in the world....it was SOOOO much fun but the ending hurt...i just dont know what to do....well i added him as a friend on facebook so i guess its his turn to make a move....he probably wont because he is leaving monday to go back and it was just a fling...i just have to keep telling myself that....it was just a fling....

Sorry this post is depressing....but i need a way to vent and this was it.....thanks for reading...and listening...

New Brown Hair!

I found out that I wasn't going to PacRim. It's kind of sad but it will be okay! I'm gonna try and hopefully go in the Summer of 2009 to Vienna. I really want to because a lot of my friends are going there too then. So that is a plus! Today was my second day of chemistry and Acts and Parent/Child Relations. They were all exciting except for Chemistry! Cuz that was kind of boring! Oh and I had my History class too! That was kind of fun cuz I sit with like the whole baseball team too! haha! But so ya know....its just fun! And then tonight I just did some homework with Carissa and we watched "Whatever It Takes" and "The Replacements!" Also I found out that I am definitely going on kind of like a blind double date Friday night with Shane's cousin! He is really cute! I'm definitely nervous and excited at the same time! YEAH! And I started texting this other guy who I think is really cute. But I don't know what is going to happen with him. He has been my friend for a long time and I don't know what will happen with that. I can't really say names because if some crazy thing happens and they read this....it would be embarassing. lol! So yeah! haha!

So I definitely dyed my hair brown and had a comment to put up pictures of it! It's beautiful! I love it! Here are some pictures for you to enjoy! I love it and I hope you do too! Do you like it???That's carissa with me on the right! And then on the left is like a close up of it!~ But it is super cute! I will try and take better ones a little later. We went bowling that night for really cheap so it was a lot of fun! Tomorrow night we will probably be going to Laser Quest cuz It's cheaper since OC paid for some of it...and we are making Spaghetti in Carissa's apartment and I invited the guy I have been talking to to come too so hopefully he will and it will be fun! Well "hump day" of my first week of classes is finally over! lol! just two more days to go until the weekend! lol! Hope you all have a wonderful rest of the week!

2nd Day of Class!

Well today is the second day of class! I have went to all my classes at least once except for my second bible class! It's today at 230! I'm not too worried about it though! My Fitness and Wellness class now meets only once a week so thats good because it isn't too big of a class! All my other classes are going to be pretty fun! My Chemistry class is going to challenge me a little bit but I have a good partner so he can help me! Also, I changed my major AGAIN...but hopefully this is the final time! I'm just a Business major with a minor in Family Studies! Sounds exciting enough right? I like it! This semester I am taking one Family Studies class! I'm excited about it because it's like an Iota thing! There are almost like 7 girls in there that are in Iota with me!

I have an interview today after Bible class at 3:30 to see if I can go on PacRim in the fall! I'm so nervous and yet so excited because I hope that I get to go! YEAH! I will let you all know if I get to go... They are going to make their decision by the end of the week.

Today is also our first Iota meeting for this semester! I'm sooooo excited because we are starting to practice for Spring Sing and that is just going to be the best part of this next semester! Also, I might be an extra in a couple of the other numbers besides with Iota in Spring Sing! I signed up for it so hopefully they will email me back soon! Yeah!

Oh I also died my hair brown! It's beautiful! I love it! It's finally my natural colour and I really like it! It has some blonde highlights in it too but the brown is so pretty!

Well, I think that is just about it! I'm gonna get back to my homework! Love you all! Leave me some comments!