K is for....

Knots...

Lets just say my heart is in knots right now...I met a guy..with a few flaws...he leaves for the MARINES?? Why can't I get away from Military guys!?? I don't understand. Well lets just say the whole boy issue..I don't really know how its going...Complicated..is a great word to describe it. He left Sunday so the complication is really in my head. I just don't know.

Other than that...my life is going pretty good. I am just working and getting ready for school in the fall. I really am excited for school to start because being without a car makes the summer harder to enjoy. At least at school I will be closer to all my friends and actually have things to take up my time. I am taking only 12 hours in the fall because I need to bring my GPA up really bad! But I have ambition now and I'm going to do it! I'm super excited!

My feet problems are getting worse. The doctor that I was going to gave me the orthotics that he made for me and I would try them out for two weeks and then go back in for a check-up. My feet still hurt...we repeated this process 3 or 4 times. Finally on the last time which occurred yesterday he decided that he would send my orthotics without measuring anything or without any markings on the orthotics. I am thinking...how are some random guys going to fix these without knowing what to fix? It was crazy...anyway so mom and I decided that we are going to get a second opinion. I am going to see a different Podiatrist next Thursday...the only bad thing is that I am going to go without any orthotics in my shoes for probably a month which will be painful. I might have to just wear tennis shoes all the time because those didn't hurt AS BAD.

Pray for me everyone! Pray for my man situation...pray for my feet...and just pray for me in general! I need prayers!

I think thats about it for today! I love all of you! Hope you have a fantastic day! Praying has always been something I lack in my life but I'm trying to bring it in to my life! I would really appreciate it if you could help me with that. Thanks everyone!

'There are more tears shed over answered prayers than over unanswered prayers"
-Teresa of Avila

J is for....

Just a quick prayer request!

Let's be honest...I cannot think of any word that starts with a J! It was really hard for me to find one so I cheated! Sorry! I wanted to stop by on my wonderful blog and say hi to everyone! And I want to let everyone know that if you have anything that is heavy on your heart or that is just bothering you...then drop me a comment and I will add you to my prayer list. I know that I would thoroughly appreciate it if you would put me on your prayer lists. I recently have met a certain boy and think he's pretty special and I'm pretty worried about how it is going to turn out since he leaves for the Marines this coming Sunday! But I am just requesting prayers so hopefully what is supposed to happen...will happen! As for now he is my boyfriend! And trust me...anything more than that right now is CRAZY TALK! But prayers would be greatly appreciated so the right thing happens since I have such a crazy messed up love life past!

Other than that...not much has been going on! Just working and hanging out! I turned in my macbook last Wednesday...it was sad. I will miss OC but I think it will be better for me to not be there. It might have been a stupid decision but its made now and I am not going to regret it.

Here's my thought for the day in a quote! Enjoy!

"If only we'd stop trying to be happy we'd have a pretty good time."
-Edith Wharton

I is for...

In loving memory of Kathryn Michelle Kennedy!

1 year ago today at 12 in the morning I was sitting in the Warren East auditorium awaiting for Harry Potter and the Order Of The Pheonix to come on the big screen. I was thrilled! I had waited for days for it to come out and it was the midnight showing. I remember that night like it was yesterday, because little did I know that my best friend in the whole world was going through so much pain at the same time.

My best friend, Katie, was living the college life. She was working at the Air Force Base and just hanging out since it was the summer time. She would stay up late and sleep in! She had just gotten a new dog not too long before this night. She loved Riley very much! A few days before the premier of Harry Potter I had asked Katie if she wanted to go with me. A lot of us were going to dinner and then to see Harry Potter later that night and I wanted to Katie to come along. She had told me that she didn't feel too well and really just wanted to stay at home. So, Katie decided that she would do her laundry that night. Around 1 A.M. on July 11th,2007 she walked downstairs to switch out her laundry when all of a sudden she couldn't catch her breath. She didn't know what was going on. So she walked upstairs and woke up her mom, since her mom was a nurse. Her mom rushed her to the hospital which was only a couple blocks away. Katie walked in and was responding to the doctor very well. The doctor looked at her and checked her vital signs and everything turned out right. So the doctor told her to just lay down on this bed and we will check a few more things so you can get on back to your beauty sleep. Katie laid down...and her heart stopped. It was tragic. They did surgeries after surgeries to try and bring her back. Nothing worked. She was pronounced dead sometime that night, I'm not sure the exact time.

After, I had left the Harry Potter premier I went home and didn't think anything of it. I found my pillow and went off to sleep. I had no idea that such a tragedy was happening at the same time. The next morning I awoke in time to attend my 8 o' clock class. I had a test first thing in Psychology and then after my test we had a break before we came back for a lecture. During the break, I was feeling pretty good until I checked my voicemail. My best friend Chris had called me and left a message, 'Myra, call me it's about Katie' I honestly didn't know what to think. I had no idea anything was going on. I called Chris and when he told me what happened I didn't believe him. I said, 'Stop joking around Chris!' He wasn't. He was really sad.

The funeral was on the 14th of July. It was a very nice service. They had lots of pictures and it was really hard to be there. It really hadn't hit me until I saw the casket. I about died...I was just heartbroken. I couldn't believe that my best friend for so long was gone. Still today, I sometimes feel like she will just come back one day because I don't want it to be real. At her funeral, there was so many people. We all wore pink in remembrance of her! That was her favorite color!

Today, I just want to ask for everyone's prayers for me, Katie's family, and all of Katie's friends. This is a very hard day for me to get through and I know that Katie is up there watching over me right now. So if all of you could just stop...take a minute..and remember my best friend Katie. She will always be with me! I love you Katie and I really miss you!

Thanks for your prayers!

In Loving Memory of Kathryn Michelle 'Katie' Kennedy!

H is for...

Heartache...Happy...and Home

First off, H is for Heartache because of some recent events with men in my life. I don't know why I would go down the path of heartache with a certain someone once again in my life but I did...I thought he had changed. He hadn't, but I'm on the right track and at least this time I went down that path it only lasted a week and a half instead of another 2 1/2 years!

Second. H is for Happy! This weekend was one of the greatest weekends of my life! I got to spend every second of it with my adorable nieces! They are so amazing and cute! I swear that Jaylen is started reaching for me one time! I heard her say 'dada' and she just always smiled! I got to hold her in church as well and she just was so cuddly! Aww I love it! And she went in the pool with me as well! She had a cute little floating device! Mel and G called it her 'boat' I thought she just looked so cute in it! And Macy was there too! She was rolling over..spittin up on me..and just looking so adorable! Both of my nieces wore their pisa shirts we got them from Italy one day and they were the cutest cousins! And their 4th of July outfits matched so well also! Those two are going to be such good friends when they get older! I can just tell!

Third. H is for Home! Just because I have officially been in Kansas for the last 2 weeks doesn't mean I have really been home. Yesterday was my first day since I had been back that I didn't have to prepare for anything...the State Farm cookout...4th of July...Young Professionals party...I just relaxed! I watched One Tree Hill and Because I said So and just relaxed! Oh it felt so good! It has been awhile since I had that relaxation! And of course it won't happen for too long because Thursday we are going to OKC again to get my couch and maybe stop out by LCCC. But yesterday, today, and tomorrow will be great days for me! Because I don't have to do anything! Aww...the feeling! I missed it!

Well thats all..hope you all have a wonderful day!!

'She smiles and laughs like all the rest...There's so much that she needs to get off her chest...At one point her smile was real...But now she only puts it on so people dont make a big deal...'

Just a quick bragging post...:)

Just for one quick note...I want to brag right now that I have a slight 60% feeling that I might follow in my papas footsteps and take on the family business! State Farm! haha! It would be cool right? Go on all those cool trips...make lots of money...and actually have time with my family too! Today I took the first step into agency! I sold 3 lines of insurance! YAY! I sold an auto policy, a renters policy, and life insurance! Definitely saved my customer 40 dollars because she was already paying about 250 a month on just auto...with S.F. she pays about 210 a month for auto, renters, and life! So definitely did some good!

Well I just wanted to state the fact that there is a big possibility that I might go into insurance later on in life...not that I don't want to be a teacher anymore because i do...but you know what? I make more money being an agent! lol! Can't rely on someone else forever...haha! Thats all for now..just needed some bragging room for my selling ability of insurance! YEAH!

Oh and also, I was searching through blogs today...and saw this hilarious statement and I couldn't help but crack up!
'I realized this weekend that the size 4 clothes are in the big-girls section of Target; along with training bras, fake hair pieces, hip-hop dance wear, and hooker earrings. I need a sedative....'
What has this world come to?