is SHE single? not me...SHE

Have you ever been that one girl that it seems like every time you think that something is going really good with a guy he says "So your friend, (name), is she single?" or something along the lines as "I really like talking to you and I feel like I can express myself to you, and I was just wondering if you could help me talk to your friend, (name)?".....Yeah I'm one of those girls....I am trying my hardest to not even think about guys and just focus on school...one problem! I HAVE NO SCHOOL for 4 days! AHHH!!!! thank goodness I am down to 3 days but still its a hard 3 days! When I'm hanging out with my guy friends and those questions come up it just hurts sometimes.  Then I tell them "She has a boyfriend" or "Yeah I don't think your her type" they never get the hint "LOOK RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU" AHHHHHHH!!!!!!! Boys can be so dumb sometimes! I try my hardest to leave them alone and yet the still seem to hurt me...why is this happening! Next time I have the option of staying at mel and G's house or POSSIBLY hanging out with some guy.....im picking mel and G's! 

Well enough of venting for tonight....it's just hard to be the go-between friend.....Well it's 4 A.M. and I can't sleep...this sucks! And mel is picking me up at 730! yikes! Alright...bye all! Sorry for my ventilation but that is really what this blog is turning out to be...a ventilation! And sometimes it is needed!

I PASSED!!!!

So just a real quick update on some super good news! This morning I went to IT and asked them if I could take a CLEP exam for Elements of Math I so I could get those 3 credit hours without taking the class! I sat down, listening to my music, and just went through each question. I almost didn't remember that I was taking a test! But I did it. Finished with 13 minutes left on the clock. I actually thought I missed a few and just accepted that whatever I got was ok. And the screen came up and I PASSED! I got above the required amount! The second CLEP test I have ever taken and I passed them both! I was so excited that I had to tell everyone!

So that's 3 more hours towards graduating! YEAH! Well, hope everyone has a great day! Had to share my good news! LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!

Being a Writer...

I used to think about being a writer. Put my thoughts on paper. I always wanted to touch the lives of others and tell everyone about my life, my mistakes, my victories. For some reason, I would start writing down my thoughts and never finish it. I want to finish those stories. Love is something that I have become to believe can happen to someone if they don't look for it. My sister, she was around 12 years old at church camp. The only thing a girl is supposed to be thinking of then is how boys have cooties and how to do their hair. She wasn't looking for anything but that. And she found the most amazing person in her life. She found her life partner. Who would have thought that some boy in the seventh grade would end up being the best thing that ever happened to her. I look at those two and it just makes me ache because I don't have that. I want to find that person that makes my life worth living. I have been looking for that one person or that certain thing for so long. And I am coming to realize that it isn't going to come to me. I have to stop looking. I have to give up the search and be patient. My sis wasn't looking for a husband in seventh grade but little did she know....she got one! I decided that I have to give up the search. No matter how much pressure OC puts on the students so that they will marry before graduation I have to look past that. I have to stop thinking that I am going to actually find what I am looking for. I have to let God look for me and then let me in on the details later.
So to replace my endless search for the perfect mate, I am going to start finishing those stories. Start looking for the end to my stories. I was watching a TV show tonight and it just really hit me the fact that I have to be patient and God will provide a perfect husband for me one day. I will have the happiness that I see those characters having one day as long as I am patient.

As an end to this blog...no more searching for the perfect mate. No more walking around picking out prospects. No more. One day, I am going to look up from whatever it is that I am doing and my answer will come to me. My answer to life, to love, and my way to happiness.