Fighting....

I don't like it...It always happens when i don't want it to! 

For any of you who are reading this, I have some questions about Faith....I really don't know who to ask because of recent events.  

First, I want to know where in the bible it tells us that you receive God's grace through baptism?? I want chapter and verse.  I just can not find it.  

Second thing I want to know.  In the bible when it refers to who the bible is talking to and the bible is talking specifically to the Jews are we (as Gentiles) supposed to follow the same teaching?? 

Third thing I want to know.  This is not a faith concern but I want to know how to have different beliefs than someone in your life that is very important and yet still learn how to accept the differences without disregarding your entire relationship with that person? 

If I could just get your opinions on the third one.  It has been a problem for quite some time....And I don't know how to fix it.  I don't want to wait until it is too late to fix.

"To be nobody but yourself in a world that's doing its best to make you somebody else, is to fight the hardest battle you are ever going to fight. Never stop fighting."

-E.E. Cummings

S is for....

Sorry!!!

I know it has been like 4 months since I have updated my blog! I'm sorry!! I am going to try and keep it updated more often these days! I have been super busy! I'm working for my dad now almost full time (about 30 hours a week). I got licensed in Property and Casualty over my Spring Break and in August I will get licensed over Life and Health so that I will be licensed in all basic lines of insurance! That is pretty much all I need to move higher in the Insurance world except for a 4 year degree and I'm working on that too!!

This summer I have been taking Calculus III at Wichita State and working alot. Once school starts in the Fall I will not be working as much since I am going to be taking 3 math classes and a literature. And those of you who know me, I am horrible at literature! So it is going to be a difficult semester!

I also moved into my own apartment this summer....I decided it was time to do that! So hopefully I will be able to afford it when school starts. I might have to get a second job since I won't be able to work as many hours during the week. But I have to find the right one, because I would just want to work like 3 nights during the week. It will have to be the right job.

Also, I started dating a really nice Christian boy! He is a great guy and a good Christian influence as well. Just what I need! I'm pretty excited about it! We have been dating for about 4 1/2 months!

My sister is also expecting another baby! I'm so excited for her!! She is due in December!! Merry Christmas!! lol! Here is a couple of pictures for you all to enjoy!

Jaylen enjoying the fireworks at the 4th of July!!

Macy sporting her new sunglasses!!!

Macy on the runway...sportin her sunglasses and diaper!!!

Here is both girls...watchin TV together....

And here is a picture of Dustin and I...the boyfriend that I previously mentioned! He's pretty special!!

Well I hope you all enjoyed my post...like I said before! I am going to try and update more often!! And Melody and Katie...hope its ok that I borrowed a few pictures?? :)

Quote for the day: "Love: a temporary insanity, curable by marriage." - Ambrose Bierce

Q is for...

Quiet...

Yep thats pretty much the first Q word that popped into my mind!!
3 months...that's how long it has been since I have posted last..Here's what has happened, I'll give you the short version complete with pictures...

So Thanksgiving was fun...Went to Minnesota, had some quality time with the family! Enjoyed and participated in a completely amazing talent show...This is a picture of Melody, Katie, My mom, and I in our poodle skirts! The theme was 50's! All of the poodle skirts were made by my mom!! Including the little babies' ones!
This next one is a picture of my whole family that was there...It's only my mom's side!!
And this picture is Briawna and I...we dressed up on Halloween in the 50's and went to 2 Halloween parties and visited her mom's house as well!! It was great!!

These are my two little nieces...Macy (in light pink) and Jaylen (in hot pink)!!
Also, while we were in Minnesota, the lake was frozen over!! Almost all the way...but just enough so we could take a family picture on it!! Here we all are!!
Lets see...in December...you know we had Christmas!! Here's a few pictures from it...

This first one is the Young Professionals groups at Northside and Eastpoint!! We all went and played Paintball together...Organized by yours truly!! Sometime since I have forgotten to post I got nominated to organize the 'social events' of our group at church...so for my first action..we went and played Paintball!!
This next picture is from my family christmas with my dads side...its not too good but it was the best one I had with the most people in it! We also had our own family christmas with just my brothers and sisters and parents but I honestly didn't have any good pictures of it...
Also since I have been the 'social coordinator' for the young professionals, I have gotten together with two people from two different churchs and we are alternating months to have an Area-wide Devo with all our Young Professionals group...So since I had already planned the Paintball thing...We went to West Douglas church for New Years!! Here's the group picture of it!! We actually have a big group of people!! This is 3 different church groups...And the second little picture is us having one HUGE game of NERTZ!!! It's awesome..we play with partners so we can have more people play!! It's so much fun!!
The next few pictures are from 'Game Night'...I hosted an area wide event at my house...we played the Wii(btw..I got that for christmas) and Scattegories and Nertz!!! The Young Professionals at Eastpoint are obsessed with the game!! We play it everywhere if you can't tell!!
Our Nertz table...
About the end of January, I went on a ski trip to Crested Butte with the Young Professionals at church!! It was so much fun except for the fact that my foot really hurt skiing so I might not be able to ever ski again...but I'm going to try snowboarding since the boots fit differently so maybe I don't have to give up the WHOLE mountain just the skiing part...Here's a picture of the whole group that went with us..
Ok...the last pictures of the night...this was our next Area-wide activity that happened about 2 weeks ago...It was at Northside Church and we started out the night with some food and a very nice devo! Then afterwards we had 'Northside Olympics' so we were randomly put into teams and had to pick a name...so this is at the end of the night and here's the teams...


First team.....When we were counting off, everyone kept counting to 5 instead of 4 so the 1's got together and there team name was 'Shoulda Been 5's'
Next, this team is pretty self-explanatory...a bunch a engineer guys who say one thing but secretly love women...their team name was......'He-Man Women Haters'
This one...I'm really not sure how they came up with the name, but we love them for their non-originality :)...but their team name was....'Photosynthesis'
And finally, my team...there is definitely a story behind our picture...The guy on the far left in the gray sweater is named Alex Flood...so since he was kind of our group leader we named our group the 'Floodians'...but half way through the night he had to help out with leading the last even and unfortunately did not use it to his team's advantage so we decided that he should shunned and de-throned...so we changed our name to the 'Prattians' since that is Stephanie's last name...So the picture is of us raising up Stephanie and shunning Alex!! Well I hope you all enjoyed this post...I won't be updating for another week...I have lots to do..I'm going to be getting licensed for Property and Casualty Insurance...taking a trip to Branson, MO...Celebrating Macy's first birthday...and much, much more...so i'll update hopefully when I get back from all of those!!

Think about it...

"The light at the tunnel is not an illusion, the tunnel is...."

P is for....

Playlists!!!!!! Wow...I think it has been way too long since I have updated! So now that I am finally back in to blogging I realized that my countdown to my birthday was already up! Because since I have last posted I have turned 21!!! Isn't that exciting? So I decided that I needed to replace the countdown with some music! I added lots of my favorite songs! I just love them!! So listen and enjoy!

Anyway...I am on my way to take a Calculus 2 Test! Wish me luck!! I will post some pictures of my birthday and just some random ones later today! I have to go get an A on my Calc 2 test right now!

Love you all! Here is my thought for this morning!

-Click on this link...you will understand my thought process-

O is for...

OOOWWWW!!!!!

So I started physical therapy on Tuesday this week and lets just say it hurts! Wow...I can't believe the pain i'm going through! Thank goodness I am off my crutches though and just have to sport around this ginormous boot! It's not too attractive but I'll live right!?? lol! Hopefully I will be out of it soon! It just depends on how long it takes for the incision to heal! Can you believe its not healed yet? Well...most of it is but there is a tiny part at the top that isn't! So my word for O is OOWWW!!! lol! Because my life is surrounded by physical pain! haha!

Oh another thing I wanted to mention was that we have had like some crazy rain recently! For those of you that have been to my house..these are pictures from my backyard last night! It was crazy! The waterfall that is usually like a little trickle of water is basically overflowing like a real huge waterfall! It's so cool! And in the pictures if you look across the water where there is a little patch of grass....ALL of that is my neighbors yard...it is totally


Anyway...so that's my yard! It's crazy! And where all the water is...there is usually a retaining wall there that if you step off of it there is 3 feet to the water below! Look in the pictures...theres no retaining wall!

Well...thats about it! I'm out to go to the benefit garage sale at my church so hope you all have a great day!

"The art of government is to make two-thirds of a nation pay all it possibly can pay for the benefit of the third."

N is for...

Numbness...

Using the word numbness comes with two examples that are both currently happening to me.

For starters...I'm sorry fellow readers for not updating for such a long time. I have been going through some tough times with having surgery, starting school, repairing such things in my life such as my heart, and honestly just trying to cope with what God has given me.

This morning when I woke up I felt like I was still playing a little Texas Hold-Em Poker. In my hand I had 2 10s. On the flop there was a Jack, a 10, and a 7, all in clubs. The turn was a Jack of hearts and the river was a 4 of clubs. So showing I had a full house 10s over Jacks. What to do? Of course you are going to bid them high! I definitely think that I have a good hand! I mean in Texas Hold-em that's a really good hand.
In my real life...I woke up realizing that for the last year I had been in love with a certain ex someone and had deeply cared for him for the previous 5 years before that. So just like in the poker hand I had a 50/50 chance. He loves me compassionately in return or his heart had moved on to better things. And in poker there is a chance that someone had a Jack and a 7 and their hand would win over mine. Or even having the final 10 with a Jack. So what did I do in the poker hand? Bid em high! I was definitely going with my gut feeling. So in real life...I bid em high! I went to this certain ex and told him everything that was on my heart. I told him that I was madly in love with him.
Someone once told me that Short term pain results in Long term pleasure. Thats what I thought my life had come to. The short term pain was over. The previous year was painful...and short term.
In the poker hand, I won! Nobody else had anything close to what i had. I was so psyched! For such a great winning I definitely decided that the love that I had for my ex was worth the risk! The risk of our actual friendship that we had made not lasting through something like this. I went all-in! The fact of the matter was that my poker hand and my love life don't always match. I lost in real life. Thank goodness my poker hand was good...but that joy only lasts until the weekend is over and your bragging rights expire. My heart on the other hand...was numb. I couldn't feel it and still can't. On facebook...my status is that i want to feel "it" again. I want to feel my heart again. I want to know that it is still there so I can give it to the man of my future dreams. Because the man of my current dreams obviously doesn't want it. So numbness part #1...the place where my heart used to be...its numb. Just as if it were never there.

Numbness part #2...my foot! My right foot is huge! It's swollen and most of it is numb. I can't feel it. During surgery the doctor found a torn tendon at the same time which when fixing that it hit a nerve. Which implied numbness. My foot will eventually get back to normal. But as of now..its nowhere close. Thank goodness that Physical Therapy starts on Tuesday and that will hopefully heal some of the numbness.

Does anyone know a good Physical Therapist that can heal my numb heart? I got one for my foot...now if only I had another one that could heal my heart. One day I will find one. And he will be the best. And if I can be honest about this certain Physical Therapist...he will be my husband. Because to fix all the brokenness and numbness in my life is going to take a miracle and thats exactly what my husband will be one day. He will be the miracle that I wait for every day. The miracle that will exceed anything else I have ever seen, yes even One Tree Hill. :)

Enough venting for one day...I will attempt to make my updates more frequent now that I am attempting to deal with my life and not search for the Physical Therapist in the yellow pages but look deeper. Look into my faith and trust in God that he will send me someone that will go above and beyond any Physical Therapist and just be the closest person to perfect as there can ever be. At least perfect to me...

My final thought...There are some people that I miss more than others but will never admit it. And those few are very special to my heart. The moment that they walked out of my life broke everything I had ever built. I have rebuilt my heart, my life, and my faith numerous times. Maybe this time...it won't get knocked down and I won't have to miss anyone anymore and I will finally be happy.
It will come to me one day...I have faith in God that it will.

"All I ever wanted for you to know was that
Everything I'd do,
I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe
I need to feel you here with me"
-'When You're Gone'

So far I have yet to get an actual comment..so don't start now. I don't want to know your opinion on this post...its too heartfelt and anything you say will make it worse. Trust me.

M is for....

Minor sugery!

Yep you read it right...I'm having minor foot surgery. It turns out that I have a fractured bone in my big toe of my right foot. My second Podiatrist found it so we are having him surgically remove that fractured bone. He said that it is not a necessary bone to have to do all the normal daily activities. Now if I ever consider to be a ballerina then those dreams would probably not come true since removing this bone will take away some of the precise foot movements that a ballerina must master. But since I am not considering to be a dancer in my future...I'm sure I will be ok.

My surgery is schedule for Tuesday, August 19th at 7:30 in the morning. The doctor said that I should be out of the hospital by 12,noon that day depending on how long it takes me to come out of the anesthesia. All of your prayers will be greatly appreciated. After the surgery I will post pictures of my cool scars! I'm sure it will be very small but still it will be a good story to tell my children right? I have learned that I have to be optimistic in cases like this or else I will never make it through.

There is one bad thing about this surgery which is the fact that I must be on crutches for the first week or so of school. My classes start 2 days after my surgery. Fortunately my father made a great point the other day regarding me having to use crutches. He said, "See Myra these crutches could be a great thing, When you are struggling with your books and crutches at the same time; then some cute boy will come up and help you." It made me laugh. My dad is hilarious sometimes! I loved it! I was thinking...I think the purpose of this surgery was for me to find my husband...its inevitable! haha!

Well with surgery next Tuesday and classes starting the following Thursday I think I'm going to be pretty busy with everything. I will attempt to update my blog pretty frequently. I just hope school doesn't take up TOO much of my time! Prayers are always appreciated!

Hope you all have a great day! i'm off to the annual Cracker Barrel Picnic on my lunch break! Yes even though it has been about a year and a half since I worked there...they still love me and want me to come! YAY!!! i'll leave you with this quote for my final thought! I love you all!

"Life is the art of drawing without an eraser."
-John W. Gardner