Sorry It has been awhile since I post on my blog! My life has been pretty hectic! Soccer intramurals started so those have been painfully taking over my life! I'm not even going to start talking about boys because they are too complicated to explain. There really isn't any...but when you start to like a certain guy and then all of a sudden you get up the guts to ask him to your banquet...he makes an excuse and says no! what does that mean? I don't understand? Sometimes I fear that I am one of those girls that all the guys talk about that is annoying and they are just thinking "why wont she just leave" when i AIM them or text them...I sometimes don't get it. Is it because he didn't know me well enough? Or because I wasn't pretty enough? I don't know what it was! Sometimes I wish that guys would just give me a chance. And then I have other guys that would date me or would have gone with me in a second....but I don't have that attraction for them. I don't understand?
A Guy likes me...I don't like them. I Like a Guy....They don't like me.
Why doesn't my life make sense? I see all those movies where the girl just happens to fall for the right guy and they break up and then she just happens to go to the right place when she happens to find him again and miraculously fall back in love! Where are the movies that tell me how my life is?
fall for the wrong guy...we don't break up for a long time....my heart and body and soul and mind get emotionally screwed up...then when we finally do break up and no one wants to date me...the right guy is already taken.
Where are those movies that make me feel like im not alone? i dont understand...or why doesn't my life match another movie? In the movies if the girl doesnt have the boyfriend...she has the job...the brains...the friends...and what do i have? nope..nothing.. lol
Well...enough of my venting for one day!
I'm just watching August Rush and trying to deal with life! Hope you all have a great day!
But seriously...It's been awhile.....
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
BEST LYRICS!!!
Well I don't have much time to update my blog at the moment because I have an Iota meeting in like 15 minutes! BUT! I wanted to tell you all the final tallies on Spring Sing and the fact that we WON BEST LYRICS! YEAH!!!!!
1st place - Gamma; Miss Piggy
2nd place - Kappa; Doctors
3rd place - Chi; Batman and Robin
4th place - The freshmen class; Cyclists
5th place - Lambda; Shrek & Donkey
6th place - Alpha; Monty Python and the Alpha Knights
7th place - IOTA; Daphne & Velma
8th place - Tie between Pi; Indiana Jones - and Theta; Alice in Wonderland
Then Beta; Annie, Sigma; Captain Planet, and Delta; Dukes of Hazard came after that but I don't know what order!
Just wanted to let you all know that! Thanks all! LOVE YOU!
GO IOTA!!!!
AND WE WON BEST LYRICS!!!! YEAH!!!!
1st place - Gamma; Miss Piggy
2nd place - Kappa; Doctors
3rd place - Chi; Batman and Robin
4th place - The freshmen class; Cyclists
5th place - Lambda; Shrek & Donkey
6th place - Alpha; Monty Python and the Alpha Knights
7th place - IOTA; Daphne & Velma
8th place - Tie between Pi; Indiana Jones - and Theta; Alice in Wonderland
Then Beta; Annie, Sigma; Captain Planet, and Delta; Dukes of Hazard came after that but I don't know what order!
Just wanted to let you all know that! Thanks all! LOVE YOU!
GO IOTA!!!!
AND WE WON BEST LYRICS!!!! YEAH!!!!
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
CLUB NIGHT!
So, tonight was club night! It was pretty freaking cool! We saw everyone's shows! I was so freaking nervous through the whole thing because we were second to last...But I loved everyone's shows! Ours was super cute! And I had so much fun with it all! All the themes are so freaking awesome! I can't wait until Thursday, Friday, and Saturday! They are going to be soooo much fun! And my family is coming to see me as well so I'm pretty nervous! But It will be great!
I dropped my Parent/Child Relations class today. I know it's bad but i was just lazy for the first 2 tests and promptly forgot (or just didn't) study for them! So My grade in the class was already an F and Dr. Banister told me that it would be ok if I just dropped the class. So, that class was dropped. So the good news with that is that everyday (except Tuesday) I don't have to wake up until chapel. Which makes my life really exciting! Some suite mate issues are going on right now. Apparently she was J's best friend and then she goes on a date with the guy that J likes?? That's messed up. So that is not too good for J! I am sad for her! But she will get through it!
As for me and guys...yeah that's like nonexistent! I am talking to this one guy from Indiana but he is a little younger than me so I don't know how good of a thing it is. But he is still a good friend out of it all! There isn't really anyone else. I sometimes wish there was but yeah it's still hard. I talked to my ex tonight...it was interesting...I don't like talking to him anymore. We aren't going to date again because our past just screwed me up wayyyy too much! But I mean talking to him is still sort of a necessity. It's not important WHY it is a necessity just trust me that it is.
Well, I think that is about it really for right now! Sam is heading to bed and I need to get on that Chemistry homework! Love you all! Have a good day!
I dropped my Parent/Child Relations class today. I know it's bad but i was just lazy for the first 2 tests and promptly forgot (or just didn't) study for them! So My grade in the class was already an F and Dr. Banister told me that it would be ok if I just dropped the class. So, that class was dropped. So the good news with that is that everyday (except Tuesday) I don't have to wake up until chapel. Which makes my life really exciting! Some suite mate issues are going on right now. Apparently she was J's best friend and then she goes on a date with the guy that J likes?? That's messed up. So that is not too good for J! I am sad for her! But she will get through it!
As for me and guys...yeah that's like nonexistent! I am talking to this one guy from Indiana but he is a little younger than me so I don't know how good of a thing it is. But he is still a good friend out of it all! There isn't really anyone else. I sometimes wish there was but yeah it's still hard. I talked to my ex tonight...it was interesting...I don't like talking to him anymore. We aren't going to date again because our past just screwed me up wayyyy too much! But I mean talking to him is still sort of a necessity. It's not important WHY it is a necessity just trust me that it is.
Well, I think that is about it really for right now! Sam is heading to bed and I need to get on that Chemistry homework! Love you all! Have a good day!
Sunday, February 24, 2008
The Lock-In was Fun.....sort of!
Well, this weekend was fun in some ways and pretty bad in some ways. Friday night, Ashford and Brenda and Christie and I all went to the WSU Lock-In! That was pretty fun...we saw some boys, J & E, and they hung out with us all night, literally. Oddly enough I knew J already from my grandma's church. He was that one guy that I always went to her church for, he was so cute and I would always just dream of him talking to me and really actually wanting to get to know me. Unfortunately, for some of the night I thought he was. I thought I kept seeing him look at me or talking to me extra close...little did I know he wanted my friend, brenda. So that was pretty much a hard let down... It wasn't anything too big but I mean it was always that secret that I knew a really hott guy and my friends couldn't come in between that...and then they did. So you know thats life! haha! I don't have pictures of the lock-in just yet on my computer but I will probably post some tomorrow.
So anyway, after that we all came back to my house in wichita and us girls all made breakfast! Because unfortunately my mom was really sick, and in bed! Sad...but hopefully she will be ok soon! Then after breakfast..we were all so worn out from being up all night that we went to sleep! Slept until around 230...well Ashford and Christie left early b/c christie had to be back in winfield earlier! Then Brenda and I woke up and got ready and met Briawna and went to Spangles for lunch! and then just shopped around in Wichita! That's always fun! I didn't buy anything unfortunately but hey thats why its called window shopping! haha! After the shopping, Briawna had to leave to go to something with her church and Brenda wanted to get back to school. So they both left and I was just at home....alone. All day I had been planning some night with all my friends from back there to go to dinner and a movie because I was in town...everyone started out coming and one by one they started dropping out. They would either not want to get out in the weather..or have plans with other friends..or not have any money. Honestly those are the times when you figure out who is your good friends and who isn't. In the end, only 3 of my friends ended up coming with me. I was sad. When one of those three, briawna, usually never is out of her apartment past like 10 and our movie started at 10. And Jenni, she didn't need to be out because she has a three month old son but she wanted to see me bad enough that she went through all the trouble to pay her younger sister to babysit cam for the night. And then james just loves me and he's a good friend so he came with us. We saw Definitely, Maybe. It was so cute! I loved it! and then after that all of us just went to Denny's and had some late night breakfast!
Then finally, today...church was interesting. My ex's mother came up to me and started lecturing me and just talking to me about things that i didn't want to talk about to her. Most of the time I try and not talk to her but on those days, like today, when she just walks right for me like she is on a mission...its hard to dodge her! lol! So we talked for about 15 minutes and then that made me call my ex today and talk to him for a while..and actually he wouldn't even talk to me. He is so mellow and has no opinion on life anymore. It makes me sad. But so that is starting to bother me. I know it has been almost 7 months since we dated but still. We had a big past and its real real hard to overcome that and just forget it. So then when I finally got out of my trap with his mom, my dad and I went to lunch together. Oddly enough, our waiter was the same one who had been my ex's and I's normal everyday waiter. So, him asking about me and my ex was not the best for me. But I guess that is life. Lunch with dad was fun, there are just alot of thoughts goin through my head. Then after Lunch, went back home and took a nap and then woke up and went to Winfield. Ashford and I went to her ex's house for a little bit and then to her house and finally headed home and made it back to OKC.
But on my mind the whole weekend, was that I don't know what I want to do in my life. I don't know what I want my major to be. It's just real hard to decide. And I don't know if I want to go to OC next semester. I'm gonna try and talk to my sister about it this week on Thursday and see what she says, but there is a possibility that I'm not coming back in the Fall. Life is so complicated and confusing at times.
Why is it when I drop everything and come to the Christian college that my morals are shout down the drain, but when I stay at home and attend the Public College, my morals are right and good??
Just Confused -
So anyway, after that we all came back to my house in wichita and us girls all made breakfast! Because unfortunately my mom was really sick, and in bed! Sad...but hopefully she will be ok soon! Then after breakfast..we were all so worn out from being up all night that we went to sleep! Slept until around 230...well Ashford and Christie left early b/c christie had to be back in winfield earlier! Then Brenda and I woke up and got ready and met Briawna and went to Spangles for lunch! and then just shopped around in Wichita! That's always fun! I didn't buy anything unfortunately but hey thats why its called window shopping! haha! After the shopping, Briawna had to leave to go to something with her church and Brenda wanted to get back to school. So they both left and I was just at home....alone. All day I had been planning some night with all my friends from back there to go to dinner and a movie because I was in town...everyone started out coming and one by one they started dropping out. They would either not want to get out in the weather..or have plans with other friends..or not have any money. Honestly those are the times when you figure out who is your good friends and who isn't. In the end, only 3 of my friends ended up coming with me. I was sad. When one of those three, briawna, usually never is out of her apartment past like 10 and our movie started at 10. And Jenni, she didn't need to be out because she has a three month old son but she wanted to see me bad enough that she went through all the trouble to pay her younger sister to babysit cam for the night. And then james just loves me and he's a good friend so he came with us. We saw Definitely, Maybe. It was so cute! I loved it! and then after that all of us just went to Denny's and had some late night breakfast!
Then finally, today...church was interesting. My ex's mother came up to me and started lecturing me and just talking to me about things that i didn't want to talk about to her. Most of the time I try and not talk to her but on those days, like today, when she just walks right for me like she is on a mission...its hard to dodge her! lol! So we talked for about 15 minutes and then that made me call my ex today and talk to him for a while..and actually he wouldn't even talk to me. He is so mellow and has no opinion on life anymore. It makes me sad. But so that is starting to bother me. I know it has been almost 7 months since we dated but still. We had a big past and its real real hard to overcome that and just forget it. So then when I finally got out of my trap with his mom, my dad and I went to lunch together. Oddly enough, our waiter was the same one who had been my ex's and I's normal everyday waiter. So, him asking about me and my ex was not the best for me. But I guess that is life. Lunch with dad was fun, there are just alot of thoughts goin through my head. Then after Lunch, went back home and took a nap and then woke up and went to Winfield. Ashford and I went to her ex's house for a little bit and then to her house and finally headed home and made it back to OKC.
But on my mind the whole weekend, was that I don't know what I want to do in my life. I don't know what I want my major to be. It's just real hard to decide. And I don't know if I want to go to OC next semester. I'm gonna try and talk to my sister about it this week on Thursday and see what she says, but there is a possibility that I'm not coming back in the Fall. Life is so complicated and confusing at times.
Why is it when I drop everything and come to the Christian college that my morals are shout down the drain, but when I stay at home and attend the Public College, my morals are right and good??
Just Confused -
Monday, February 11, 2008
Daphne!!!
Well, these past few days I have tried to overcome some major drama in my life...jealous girlfriends...ex boyfriends....and just trying to balance everything in life. Spring Sing is taking over my life other than all the drama! Our show is going to be super cute! I am so excited to perform it. My club, Iota Kappa Phi, is the brand new club at Oklahoma Christian and we are split up into two groups and half of us are Daphne's from Scooby Doo and half of us are Velma's from Scooby Doo!
I personally am Daphne! I love it! Our costumes are super cute!...Cheesy and Corny but super cute! We are having dark purple dresses with a lighter purple ribbon around the middle and the bottom..they are short sleeve and go down to about our knees...then we are going to wear pink tights underneath them with purple tennis shoes that we are dying ourselves...with a white headband in our hair! Will that not be the cutest ever?? I am so excited! I have waited since my brother was in spring sing as a sailor in delta. I have a picture of him and I when I was so young....I remember thinking that I couldn't wait to be in Spring Sing and now I finally am! I am soooo excited and really nervous at the same time! Haha! But we have had a lot of complements on our show so far and it really makes me happy to be in it. I am in the very front row on one of the songs...the second row and about 4 of the songs..and then I will be in the very back for one song just because it is the "Velma's" song....and that is definitely ok! Gotta give someone else the spotlight!
Other than spring sing right now I don't have much going on! Just trying to balance every day spring sing practice with school! It will be so worth it though! I cannot believe that it is already the middle of february! Isn't that just insane? It seems like a week ago I came back from Christmas break! But its good that this semester is going by fast...
Think about this one...In less than 6 months..I'm going to be a Junior in college! Me...a Junior! Crazy! I just keep feeling old all the time! Well, here is a picture of Daphne from scooby doo so that you all can remember what she looks like....
I personally am Daphne! I love it! Our costumes are super cute!...Cheesy and Corny but super cute! We are having dark purple dresses with a lighter purple ribbon around the middle and the bottom..they are short sleeve and go down to about our knees...then we are going to wear pink tights underneath them with purple tennis shoes that we are dying ourselves...with a white headband in our hair! Will that not be the cutest ever?? I am so excited! I have waited since my brother was in spring sing as a sailor in delta. I have a picture of him and I when I was so young....I remember thinking that I couldn't wait to be in Spring Sing and now I finally am! I am soooo excited and really nervous at the same time! Haha! But we have had a lot of complements on our show so far and it really makes me happy to be in it. I am in the very front row on one of the songs...the second row and about 4 of the songs..and then I will be in the very back for one song just because it is the "Velma's" song....and that is definitely ok! Gotta give someone else the spotlight!
Other than spring sing right now I don't have much going on! Just trying to balance every day spring sing practice with school! It will be so worth it though! I cannot believe that it is already the middle of february! Isn't that just insane? It seems like a week ago I came back from Christmas break! But its good that this semester is going by fast...
Think about this one...In less than 6 months..I'm going to be a Junior in college! Me...a Junior! Crazy! I just keep feeling old all the time! Well, here is a picture of Daphne from scooby doo so that you all can remember what she looks like....
Thursday, January 31, 2008
He Picked Her.
Well, my last post was pretty depressing...this one is just going to sum up the depressing posts...basically she came back and so he had to choose between her and me and unfortunately for me...he chose her, not me. it really hurts but i guess if i would have gone through life without knowing it would have been even worse. so yep there it is...im here again watching my friend fall in love with the guy that i want to be with for the second time..first it was austin and sam...now its these two...ill live.
on the upside of my life! I got to see my wonderful niece jaylen today she is so gorgeous! i love her with all my heart! sometimes i wish life could be like that for me and just be so easy! those were the days of happiness. Mel and I went to the dentist for her and then i took her out to lunch at this little deli in edmond. i had never heard of it but it was really good. Then after that we went to TJMaxx and just shopped! I know us shopping on such a day as this is crazy but its how we connect! And I got a super cute jacket out of it too and bought my lovely Jaylen a wonderfully beautiful sundress! It is so cute! I love spoiling her...especially when it is with my mommy's money! haha....then after that we went back to my dorm because it was just about time for me to go to class. I ran inside the Uhouse to grab my stuff for class and i checked my email real quick and guess what i found?? YEP class was cancelled! IT MADE MY DAY! so i went back outside (almost fell on the ice....too funny) and told mel and Jaylen goodbye. Went to chemistry (found out the bad news i recently informed you of) then came back to my dorm...Went over to carissa's apartment so i could just ignore what was going on...didnt work i just thought about it all more...then after that I went to the Basketball game and stayed for the first half and through the halftime dodgeball game! lol...that was pretty fun! I actually saw Ken Richter at the game with his kids. I didn't talk to him because we left early but it was pretty interesting seeing him there. Unfortunately OC lost but it was still fun!
After the game Carissa and I went to pick up my friend Becca who was sick because she had gotten her wisdom teeth out and needed to go to the store...so we went...came out and carissa's car wouldnt start...called shane..he came and when he got here his car wouldnt start...he got ticked off..started yelling at everyone even me..and then we called mitch and he came and saved the day! lol...it was just very stressful because everyone was cranky and mad and it wasnt helping the situation at all...
When we finally got back I helped my friend out with some of her math cuz she stopped me in the lobby and that was fine...then that guy from earlier(he chose her) wanted to talk..so we did for about 15 minutes...lol got interrupted by "her" and then i went into my room and just talked online to people..and now i am back out here hanging out with him because he wanted to and i couldnt sleep....
ANYWAY...i got this really cute IM tonight...a friend of mine said this is what your horoscope said and i think it is SO true.... it said this...
Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Best kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. ONE OF A KIND.Gorgeous Smile.Not one to mess with. The best sexual partners in the zodiac. Are the most attractive people on earth!
That made my day! well...enough depression and unnecessary information just me venting once again!
Love you all!
on the upside of my life! I got to see my wonderful niece jaylen today she is so gorgeous! i love her with all my heart! sometimes i wish life could be like that for me and just be so easy! those were the days of happiness. Mel and I went to the dentist for her and then i took her out to lunch at this little deli in edmond. i had never heard of it but it was really good. Then after that we went to TJMaxx and just shopped! I know us shopping on such a day as this is crazy but its how we connect! And I got a super cute jacket out of it too and bought my lovely Jaylen a wonderfully beautiful sundress! It is so cute! I love spoiling her...especially when it is with my mommy's money! haha....then after that we went back to my dorm because it was just about time for me to go to class. I ran inside the Uhouse to grab my stuff for class and i checked my email real quick and guess what i found?? YEP class was cancelled! IT MADE MY DAY! so i went back outside (almost fell on the ice....too funny) and told mel and Jaylen goodbye. Went to chemistry (found out the bad news i recently informed you of) then came back to my dorm...Went over to carissa's apartment so i could just ignore what was going on...didnt work i just thought about it all more...then after that I went to the Basketball game and stayed for the first half and through the halftime dodgeball game! lol...that was pretty fun! I actually saw Ken Richter at the game with his kids. I didn't talk to him because we left early but it was pretty interesting seeing him there. Unfortunately OC lost but it was still fun!
After the game Carissa and I went to pick up my friend Becca who was sick because she had gotten her wisdom teeth out and needed to go to the store...so we went...came out and carissa's car wouldnt start...called shane..he came and when he got here his car wouldnt start...he got ticked off..started yelling at everyone even me..and then we called mitch and he came and saved the day! lol...it was just very stressful because everyone was cranky and mad and it wasnt helping the situation at all...
When we finally got back I helped my friend out with some of her math cuz she stopped me in the lobby and that was fine...then that guy from earlier(he chose her) wanted to talk..so we did for about 15 minutes...lol got interrupted by "her" and then i went into my room and just talked online to people..and now i am back out here hanging out with him because he wanted to and i couldnt sleep....
ANYWAY...i got this really cute IM tonight...a friend of mine said this is what your horoscope said and i think it is SO true.... it said this...
Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Best kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. ONE OF A KIND.Gorgeous Smile.Not one to mess with. The best sexual partners in the zodiac. Are the most attractive people on earth!
That made my day! well...enough depression and unnecessary information just me venting once again!
Love you all!
Monday, January 28, 2008
Complicated...
Hello all, I know I haven't posted in a while! I guess things get hectic around here pretty often! Since my last post I have started and stopped liking one guy and begun to start another one again. The first guy that I have already stopped liking seemed like the perfect guy...Youth Ministry Major....had ambitions...really cute...even from Wichita...but for some reason his feelings were there for me too just not as much as they were there for some other girl. After him and I hung out one night and then talked a lot for a few weeks I guess this other girl started talking to him again..It's almost like I was there only to pass the time.
Anyway so that guy went down the drain. And recently I have been hanging out with one of my really good friends. We have been friends since I came to OC and I have really started to like him. Well, before the Christmas break he started talking to another girl, we will call her "C", This guy really liked C and they started talking alot. They had not become an official item before they left school. Over the break he talked to her seldomly and then New Year's Eve he text me. "Myra, do you like me?" and then it all came out...I said yes and he was like I was always too shy to ask you that. We text for the next couple of days and then we finally were back to OC. He kept talking to C and I kind of was just a few conversations over break. It hurt but I guess I thought that our friendship was more important than a relationship. Then he would start asking me advice. Advice on dates and asking her to be his girlfriend. He hurts a lot but he was an amazing friend and I wanted to be there for him. After they started dating, we were just friends. They dated for about 2 weeks and then she all of a sudden broke up with him. He was in complete shock. I am almost positive I was just the rebound for him but he started spending alot of time with me cuddling, flirting, you know the works. Late nights talking or watching movies. This past weekend C was out of town so he spent almost every night with me. Then tonight, we were in the middle of watching a movie and one of his friends comes in and tells him that C is very jealous and upset that he is watching a movie with me. He tells me that earlier tonight C was talking about wanting to get back together with him and he wanted to go talk to her. Of course, here comes friendly Myra again...Of course, go talk to her she definitely wants to get back together with you. I'm sure it will all work out for the best....
And that was it. I left the elevator saying "Later" and walked to my room. We didn't even finish the movie. There I was giving up all that sleep to spend time with him and the second she comes back he just drops me in an instant for her. That part hurts...it hurts alot...this is one of my friends that I have liked since I came to OC I just didnt want to jeopardize our friendship.
What's more important....A friendship or a Relationship? Tough call....but I always try and make sure the other person is happy...even if it means breaking my heart over and over again.
Sorry this was so depressing...didnt say these would be fun and exciting its just a place to vent.
Myra
Anyway so that guy went down the drain. And recently I have been hanging out with one of my really good friends. We have been friends since I came to OC and I have really started to like him. Well, before the Christmas break he started talking to another girl, we will call her "C", This guy really liked C and they started talking alot. They had not become an official item before they left school. Over the break he talked to her seldomly and then New Year's Eve he text me. "Myra, do you like me?" and then it all came out...I said yes and he was like I was always too shy to ask you that. We text for the next couple of days and then we finally were back to OC. He kept talking to C and I kind of was just a few conversations over break. It hurt but I guess I thought that our friendship was more important than a relationship. Then he would start asking me advice. Advice on dates and asking her to be his girlfriend. He hurts a lot but he was an amazing friend and I wanted to be there for him. After they started dating, we were just friends. They dated for about 2 weeks and then she all of a sudden broke up with him. He was in complete shock. I am almost positive I was just the rebound for him but he started spending alot of time with me cuddling, flirting, you know the works. Late nights talking or watching movies. This past weekend C was out of town so he spent almost every night with me. Then tonight, we were in the middle of watching a movie and one of his friends comes in and tells him that C is very jealous and upset that he is watching a movie with me. He tells me that earlier tonight C was talking about wanting to get back together with him and he wanted to go talk to her. Of course, here comes friendly Myra again...Of course, go talk to her she definitely wants to get back together with you. I'm sure it will all work out for the best....
And that was it. I left the elevator saying "Later" and walked to my room. We didn't even finish the movie. There I was giving up all that sleep to spend time with him and the second she comes back he just drops me in an instant for her. That part hurts...it hurts alot...this is one of my friends that I have liked since I came to OC I just didnt want to jeopardize our friendship.
What's more important....A friendship or a Relationship? Tough call....but I always try and make sure the other person is happy...even if it means breaking my heart over and over again.
Sorry this was so depressing...didnt say these would be fun and exciting its just a place to vent.
Myra
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