The new look....and now the new life!

So you like the new look? I decided that this blog was no longer going to be some depressing thing that makes me more sad about my life...I'm going to be a much happier person now! My mom and I are starting to get along a lot more! I have a job that lets me get away sometimes! I am starting to go to the Young Professionals group at Eastpoint and quite frankly I LOVE IT! Its a lot of fun! I went last night for one of the first times outside of the church building and i had so much fun! I also decided that guys aren't worth my trouble. As much as I eventually want a significant other in my life they are too much stress and trouble for now. When the right one comes...I'll know! I have so many other things to worry about...those adorable nieces of mine...beginner session...going to Colorado...going on the cruise...mending my walk with Christ...and just trying to cope! Definitely not in that order but the list can go on quite a while farther!

So I have decided to just focus on the important things and as my mom says "Get your priorities right" haha! she makes me laugh! Oh another awesome thing is that my mom txts now! Isn't that awesome!! BUT...she will only txt her beloved children! haha! I accepted that! And also...shes using T9! Isn't that just hilarious!??? I love it so much!

I also want to make another shout out today to my adorable beautiful niece Jaylen! Today she turned 6 months old and I am so happy!! She is growing up so fast and I am just in shock everytime I see her she is so big! Pretty soon she is going to be saying no to boys! haha! Well...hopefully it doesn't come that fast! She is so adorable I can't help just love her!

Pretty soon its going to Macy getting to be this big! My life as an Aunt could never be better! Two nieces growing up to be so amazingly beautiful at the same time! It's an amazing feeling!

I guess thats all for now...I might post some pictures up later! But as for now...I'm just growing up...20 years later...and i'm finally going to grow up! haha!

"As my apprentice, you are never fired"
-God

Time for a change...

Well it is that time....for 5 years I haven't ever cut my hair in too much a different way until today! I officially cut all my hair off and lets just say I look older...more mature...so here's some pics of it so you can make the decision! but It's so short now! AHHH!!!! Hope you like it!

is SHE single? not me...SHE

Have you ever been that one girl that it seems like every time you think that something is going really good with a guy he says "So your friend, (name), is she single?" or something along the lines as "I really like talking to you and I feel like I can express myself to you, and I was just wondering if you could help me talk to your friend, (name)?".....Yeah I'm one of those girls....I am trying my hardest to not even think about guys and just focus on school...one problem! I HAVE NO SCHOOL for 4 days! AHHH!!!! thank goodness I am down to 3 days but still its a hard 3 days! When I'm hanging out with my guy friends and those questions come up it just hurts sometimes.  Then I tell them "She has a boyfriend" or "Yeah I don't think your her type" they never get the hint "LOOK RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU" AHHHHHHH!!!!!!! Boys can be so dumb sometimes! I try my hardest to leave them alone and yet the still seem to hurt me...why is this happening! Next time I have the option of staying at mel and G's house or POSSIBLY hanging out with some guy.....im picking mel and G's! 

Well enough of venting for tonight....it's just hard to be the go-between friend.....Well it's 4 A.M. and I can't sleep...this sucks! And mel is picking me up at 730! yikes! Alright...bye all! Sorry for my ventilation but that is really what this blog is turning out to be...a ventilation! And sometimes it is needed!

I PASSED!!!!

So just a real quick update on some super good news! This morning I went to IT and asked them if I could take a CLEP exam for Elements of Math I so I could get those 3 credit hours without taking the class! I sat down, listening to my music, and just went through each question. I almost didn't remember that I was taking a test! But I did it. Finished with 13 minutes left on the clock. I actually thought I missed a few and just accepted that whatever I got was ok. And the screen came up and I PASSED! I got above the required amount! The second CLEP test I have ever taken and I passed them both! I was so excited that I had to tell everyone!

So that's 3 more hours towards graduating! YEAH! Well, hope everyone has a great day! Had to share my good news! LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!

Being a Writer...

I used to think about being a writer. Put my thoughts on paper. I always wanted to touch the lives of others and tell everyone about my life, my mistakes, my victories. For some reason, I would start writing down my thoughts and never finish it. I want to finish those stories. Love is something that I have become to believe can happen to someone if they don't look for it. My sister, she was around 12 years old at church camp. The only thing a girl is supposed to be thinking of then is how boys have cooties and how to do their hair. She wasn't looking for anything but that. And she found the most amazing person in her life. She found her life partner. Who would have thought that some boy in the seventh grade would end up being the best thing that ever happened to her. I look at those two and it just makes me ache because I don't have that. I want to find that person that makes my life worth living. I have been looking for that one person or that certain thing for so long. And I am coming to realize that it isn't going to come to me. I have to stop looking. I have to give up the search and be patient. My sis wasn't looking for a husband in seventh grade but little did she know....she got one! I decided that I have to give up the search. No matter how much pressure OC puts on the students so that they will marry before graduation I have to look past that. I have to stop thinking that I am going to actually find what I am looking for. I have to let God look for me and then let me in on the details later.
So to replace my endless search for the perfect mate, I am going to start finishing those stories. Start looking for the end to my stories. I was watching a TV show tonight and it just really hit me the fact that I have to be patient and God will provide a perfect husband for me one day. I will have the happiness that I see those characters having one day as long as I am patient.

As an end to this blog...no more searching for the perfect mate. No more walking around picking out prospects. No more. One day, I am going to look up from whatever it is that I am doing and my answer will come to me. My answer to life, to love, and my way to happiness.

It's Been Awhile...

Sorry It has been awhile since I post on my blog! My life has been pretty hectic! Soccer intramurals started so those have been painfully taking over my life! I'm not even going to start talking about boys because they are too complicated to explain. There really isn't any...but when you start to like a certain guy and then all of a sudden you get up the guts to ask him to your banquet...he makes an excuse and says no! what does that mean? I don't understand? Sometimes I fear that I am one of those girls that all the guys talk about that is annoying and they are just thinking "why wont she just leave" when i AIM them or text them...I sometimes don't get it. Is it because he didn't know me well enough? Or because I wasn't pretty enough? I don't know what it was! Sometimes I wish that guys would just give me a chance. And then I have other guys that would date me or would have gone with me in a second....but I don't have that attraction for them. I don't understand?

A Guy likes me...I don't like them. I Like a Guy....They don't like me.

Why doesn't my life make sense? I see all those movies where the girl just happens to fall for the right guy and they break up and then she just happens to go to the right place when she happens to find him again and miraculously fall back in love! Where are the movies that tell me how my life is?

fall for the wrong guy...we don't break up for a long time....my heart and body and soul and mind get emotionally screwed up...then when we finally do break up and no one wants to date me...the right guy is already taken.

Where are those movies that make me feel like im not alone? i dont understand...or why doesn't my life match another movie? In the movies if the girl doesnt have the boyfriend...she has the job...the brains...the friends...and what do i have? nope..nothing.. lol

Well...enough of my venting for one day!

I'm just watching August Rush and trying to deal with life! Hope you all have a great day!

But seriously...It's been awhile.....

BEST LYRICS!!!

Well I don't have much time to update my blog at the moment because I have an Iota meeting in like 15 minutes! BUT! I wanted to tell you all the final tallies on Spring Sing and the fact that we WON BEST LYRICS! YEAH!!!!!

1st place - Gamma; Miss Piggy
2nd place - Kappa; Doctors
3rd place - Chi; Batman and Robin
4th place - The freshmen class; Cyclists
5th place - Lambda; Shrek & Donkey
6th place - Alpha; Monty Python and the Alpha Knights
7th place - IOTA; Daphne & Velma
8th place - Tie between Pi; Indiana Jones - and Theta; Alice in Wonderland
Then Beta; Annie, Sigma; Captain Planet, and Delta; Dukes of Hazard came after that but I don't know what order!

Just wanted to let you all know that! Thanks all! LOVE YOU!

GO IOTA!!!!

AND WE WON BEST LYRICS!!!! YEAH!!!!